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103. Random Amusing

2012-02-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Back on few days ago, I joined accompl.sh, a community based, goal achieving site and listed 10 nearest goal that I want to achieve in this current year. One of those goals include reading 10 books before May ends. It is a mission that I develop, track, publish the progress report and gonna be accomplish in this coming 365 days or less. By the way, I also accepting myself a challenge to "cook a meal at least once per month." muahehe. I think this going to be very fun :3 ( for a lazy girl like me ) You should try it, it's fun for real.

So I went through a number of weird things pass 48 hours ago. I won myself a pair of tickets to Malaysia versus Japan's Olympic Qualification from @TeamMsia lol this is awkward really. Answered the question "Name one of the football players who played in Munich 1972" with Soh Chin Aun, and I simply won the tickets which is very lucky. ( fyi I never won myself any Kpop contest before sobs ) However to my concern, the match will be up on Wednesday, February 22nd ( which is wow, today ) where my monthly test going to be held at the same night. Hurray (Y) I don't even have the right to curse any particular people, nor date to begin with. Pissed off. I really want to see Harimau Muda ( coughFadhliShascough ) in action.... Nooooo. Whatever fella I'm going back home this coming weekend and that's matter the most. I need to recharge myself with ibu and again ibu's wise words, well you know what, life-battery apparently drains out so fast blahblahbla.

Herm, oh ya! Probably this is the effect of being an abnormal submissive person, I apparently having this big big big big crush on this Hollywood actor, Lucas Till mwahahahahha *continues laughing hysterically for a few minutes* You can see him appeared on Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me and Hannah Montana: The Movie ( which I found out becoming two most replaying back-to-back music video/film on my desktop. ) I rarely have this kind of childish dream, but now how I wish I'm walking the street with him and his worn-out jeans, laughing on the bench thinking to myself, hey isn't this easy. Nah I'm just crapping lah..... lol

Seeya seeya people!

102. Edisi Khas: Birthday Cik Yan

2012-02-19T10:29:00.000+08:00

p/s: Untuk mendapatkan inspirasi menulis entri khas ini, aku mendengar lagu ~~raya~~ mendayu-dayu berulang kali hingga rasa nak muntah ( over eh )

Ahem.

Aku bukanlah the kind of hopeless romantic girl yang selalu mengarang karangan puitis berbunga untuk dibaca oleh penduduk yang faham bahasa Malaysia lagi-lagi yang aku kenal sebab aku pemalu. Okay tutup muka. Aku pun jadi pelik kenapa ada berani sangat menulis macamtu rupa untuk bacaan Cik Jazz bertarikh 8 Disember tahun lalu. Mungkin disebabkan keover-an Jazz menyambut birthday 21-nya membuatkan aku jadi sama teruja. ( ampun-ampun mbak ) Teringin nak buat kenyataan songsang buat otak tukang pembaca berfikir sikit, nak berayat berkias guna bahasa ibunda. Jadi untuk lebih adil, aku kenalah menulis skema entri khas untuk the one and only kawan baik tinggi lampai zaman sekolah menengah, Raihan Dayana Khamis :)

I don't want this to end sadly so I'll try my best heh. ( weh, apa yang bestnya baca entry pasal orang menulis tentang kita? )

Habis 2007 aku tamat belajar dari salah sebuah sekolah menengah di Batu Pahat sebagai lepasan SPM yang terkontang-kanting membuat permohonan sambung belajar di lain tempat. Jadi kenangan terakhir aku tentang sekolah menengah memang yang baik-baik sahaja. Oleh kerana kenangan tersebut terhad dalam tempoh 5 tahun sahaja, aku jadi kurang gemar bila kamu bercerita tentang tambahan 2 tahun yang kamu orang jalani tanpa aku. Tak suka. Jadi aku diamkan diri ( ...dari Facebook lulz ) Okay macam budak-budak sungguh.

Aku refresh dan aku refresh lagi kenangan zaman sekolah. Dan dalam kenangan aku cuma ada situasi 5A yang bising dengan dijaga ketua kelas Helmi, si jejaka terlajak, penolong Farhanah Ahmad yang sweet-sweet gitu dan beberapa entiti-entiti lain, kkslaipoyokorangtaulabdkcinatuetc. Raihan Dayana seingat aku adalah pelajar hardworking terutamanya sewaktu kelas BI nak-nak lagi apabila dia menjadi favorite student Cikgu Hawa. Iya, favorite student yang selalu terpilih membaca poem dalam buku teks haha. Jadi Yan agak skema bila berada di kelas tersebut tapi Tika lebih skema dari itu. Dekat kelas-kelas atas ni memang ramai yang skema, tak boleh ke semua orang rilek macam kita ni kan Jazz? *tetibe* Ingat tak bila kita ponteng kelas tambahan Fizik lepas tu lepak depan tangga dengan muka tak bersalah siap dengar cerita hantu lagi. Cool gile kita zaman tu. ( self-adoring lol )

Yan kau ingat tak lagi surat bersampul coklat yang kau bagi kat aku tahun 2005, siap bertulis amaran "Jangan dibuka sekarang. Buka 10 tahun akan datang." Kalau kau memang arif tentang aku, kau mesti dah tahu kan aku dah mungkir janji, aku dah lama buka surat tu mwahaha ( yang dalamnya bertulis: Hai dah 10 tahun ke ni, jangan bohong eh. ) Dalam surat tersebut kau sangat kebudak-budakkan dengan mengucapkan selamat berbahagia kepada aku dan mengosipkan aku dengan mamat ntah sape-sape ntah. Heish hahaha.

Aku tak tahu kenapa dulu kita ada banyak waktu sengang untuk buat surat-surat macam ni, memang dapat disahkanlah kita berlima ini memang kurang belajar zaman sekolah dulu. Surat perjanjian lepasan SPM dengan due date tahun 2013 adalah reunion paling dekat. Yang lain-lain termasuklah Perjanjian Perkahwinan tu agak payahla nak ditunaikan buat masa terdekat ni hahahah lainlahkalaukaudahadacalonnakkenalkan Truth be truth we were just the sort of girls who wanna make fun last for hours kan? :) Terima kasih lah kawan, zaman sekolah aku memang yang paling best. Because no matter how terrible it was every experience, every pass story was so amazing indeed (: Mesin apakah yang boleh putar masa balik semula? Takde. But when the past has gone it doesn't mean we've lost our happiness. Happiness is not a memories, its everywhere :) Dimana-mana.

I wish you a plenty of happiness and happiness long this year. What else? Virtual hugs. Selamat hari lahir ke-22 kawan :D

p/s: Ye aku tahu aku memang takda gambar lain dah. Ini je la kitar semula. Zaman 2000-an dulu mana ada duit nak beli filem-filem ni semua ( alasan what the penguin )

101. To Get Together

2012-02-18T15:17:00.001+08:00

Plenty to pen down versus horrible time management justify the reason for being away almost two weeks. So, shall I start rambling?

Just in case you didn't know, the whole batch of semester four having an individual job interview last week, some called it practical, with a panel of foreign lecturers. I called it "candidate speaking unwisely with hope to answer ajkfjgkglhk tricky questions properly." Huhu anyways it was a fun experience overall. I had been in front of main hall since 0900 yet my name only been called around 1030. To my surprise, it was actually a pair interview which means I get to be in the room together with another candidate ( which is Darsha, a very pleasant outspoken Indian girl thus it demands me to be extra cautious with my broken English )

Madam Hafsa, an English educator from West Asia greeted us weirdly "How's the weather outside? Is it hot?" which means she's up to her obvious acting skills ( she knows me very well, and I know her tricks pretty well too ) To make a long story short, I'm actually quite satisfied with the whole interview process though I was like pretty much blank for the rest of time when Madam get too focused on questioning Darsha. Few tricky questions been asked related to the job that I'm practically applying. At sometime, I stuttered and went "OMG what should I say." I told myself "calm down, calm down, calm down" and hoping the brain will works much faster lol. Well at the end, it was just a fun practice with course-mates yet I'm hoping that my mark will be satisfying to the point of my expectation. All is well :)

Did I told you that I'm currently reading Cecilia Ahern's P/S I Love You before this? Unless you're really really oblivious to who I am, you should know that I rarely finished the book that I read. ( exception goes to Harry Potter :P ) Oh screw that, I forgot the pages that I left before and went spending 50 bucks worth of One Malaysia Book Voucher on another three knuckles which makes me equally qualified as February's Most Wanted Bookworm evaaah yay.

What the hell should I do with the voucher anyway?

One book really interests me though. A sub-book from Harry Potter series, Fantastic Beast and Where To Find Them. Apparently there was only one copy left so I was frigging excited to find it and still stand firm to purchase though it causes me almost RM30. Wouldn't mind buying it with such price for a 300 offered pages, but these book is practically plus minus only 83 pages creycrey I paid it with a voucher anyway who cares mwahaaha /slaps. And to be honest the book marked as the first ever book finished by fahamokha90 in 2012 :) Yeah, I know you can do it xD

It's family and friends bonding time! ;D

100th Post

2012-02-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

If I were to blog more regularly and less randomly, I would've reached the 100th post a heck of a long time ago but being me, it's rather expected. My posts are random in all sort of way, my mood changes kinda rapidly. I write what I feel like writing and that certainly seize the reason that ㅡI'm not blogging for others to read, I indeed blog for myself. All the previous entries paint a picture of who I am, well not all, but I can roughly see what I was 1-2 years ago and how am I currently. The lame side of me vividly depicted in the choice of words and it shows the mature side of me. When I was younger, I'm started off with a few chapter of old-fashion diaries and I find it amusing yet amazing to still owning it :) Having this blog back on 2010 ignites back the excitement inside me as writing always being my passion since ages ago. Never once I left around without at least a pen and a notebook, I prolly considered this blog as the best place of gathering plenty of ideas inside my scrambled mind. Along the typical daily life learning, it's nice to just sit around and read how other's world goes by. I love catching snippets of random people's blog; it gives me a sneaky peek into the lives of others. Or maybe I shouldn't do it again. Well, at some point I realize that this blog has become too open for me to write everything that I wanted to write. So, everytime I decide to blog, I have to consider the possibility of people whom I prefer not to be here reading the posts I put up here. That is somewhat a nuisance. I cannot afford to allow people that I know and I don't to read me. The more that I share, the more faults people may find about me. Alas, I'm aware that I can do nothing to hold people out of their curiousness, so do my curiousness. But I guess I'm okay with it. Say hi to me if you're one of those silent reader, I won't bite. Wohoo, hundred more posts I guess?

Salam Maulidur Rasul :)

99. Friday Again

2012-02-03T08:25:00.000+08:00

Past two weeks ago were feels very fast as I couldn't distinguished the partially moments one by one. Neither that I'm very busy nor very free that I couldn't even make it simpler for my mind to relish good moment, I'm just too preoccupied with real life. Wehehe what an excuse. Somehow I got myself to update this blog of mine after so many draft been saved on the mean time. Anyway I made a deal with this one online friend that I am about to purchase something secret. And I am very excited about it ( read: super ) But lately due to her busy schedule of study, she couldn't even spend a little time to reply my e-mail. I am pretty sure that I'll be extra pissed if she is still on her random mode of on and off. Oh well. Probably I'll jot it down here once the deal make up my eagerness. Can't tell at the moment due to overwhelming secretiveness. Haha.

One of my lecturer informed us that there are offers of doing an internship on five chosen major manufacturer laptop companies in Malaysia and the eff, I am very interested ( sense some desperation state on my words ) As you already know ( I assume that you know it ) I really want to get away from the hella-banking-money-related. I have this option of graduating inside of the technological area and I wanna challenge myself of getting at least a grip out of the five. Anyway internship in major companies like this are really hard to get and only chosen 5 out of my batch with good CGPA ( of course you fella and secure an A in computerization skills ) will be choose at the end. Oh by the way, next week is my interviewing week and I am freaking no idea with it. With plenty of other stuff to be finish on time, I found every single things annoyed the crap inside me. Blegh PMS you girl. Madam told me that my pre-resume was lack with technical skills, do I need to write cooking in the list, I knew it ( shut up, shut up ) I don't want to look stupid in front of the panel, who wants it by the way? I will be a lovely interviewee so please be a good interviewer.

Can't believe that January just ended few days ago and now its new month baby, February! Wohooo ( cricket's sound ) Well, um. Time flies indeed, I'm happy with it but at the same time, its bothering me. I don't want it gone away without leaving a big mark on my life, I mean good things should come many times ain't it? :) Hehee. Oh I really should get this butt out of the chair and start travelling, jalan-jalan cari makan around, aw I miss backpacking alone, who wants to join me? :3

p/s: It's Kyuhyun's aegi day. My baby's growing up, I am such a proud ~~mummy~~ girlfriend :') Let's get married after I graduated okay oppa? ( self-slap )

98. My Goguma Heart

2012-01-26T14:17:00.001+08:00

Its been quite sometimes since the last time I wrote things about Kpop related on the blog. The self-belonging ( being who I am - the kepoh fellow ) is so strong that I feel distracted to talk about unrelated matter at the moment. But luckily ( talking about Chinese new year = Dragon year = Yong Year ) yesterday night, I'd spent a little time watching back those cute sweet memories of We Got Married YongSeo Couple and heart was weirdly fluttering and I went into cheesy mood "Awww" "Omona" "Kiyopta" "I wanna marry Jung Yonghwa" so on and so forth lol ( I am crazy liek this, I thought I like Kyuhyun the best, but I want to marry all ssienbureu orz )

I'm pretty sure that some of you previously read about my craziness over this couple whom always own a soft spot in my heart albeit not entirely but yes they're lovable. YongSeo gives the kind of vibes awkward feeling when I first watch them. They're awkward ( though TeukSora equally shows unending kinkiness along their introduction part ) Yonghwa seems harsh on the first meeting, he wants Hyun to speak Banmal on the day, which I feel the need to object but as the new chapters goes on and on, they show us how compatible they're to one another, how they means to one another <3 A lil sidetrack here, they might be the less cheesiest compare to Khuntoria and less skinship over Adam Couple, but they're my adorbs OTP. Speaking about Seohyun, reminds us about her declaration on Yonghwa ㅡis not her ideal type. Honestly I don't really read any kind of heartbreaking news but yeah, Seohyun will do her best to protect their image. In between of saying YES and NO, there'll be huge consequences and I bet she predicts it more than anyone. And I'm sure at the end, its Seohyun and Yonghwa that will knows what is in between them :') If they're together, I am a happy Goguma, if they're not, I am a respectful Goguma.

"During yesterday's SNSD fanmeeting, there was a segment where the girls stated a problem they have, and they flipped a special book to a random page for an answer. When it came to Seohyun's turn, before she could say her problem, Yoona shouted, "Wanting to see Jung Yonghwa!", and the other unnies soon followed suit with shouts of "Yong seobang!". Seohyun eventually chose "When can I stop my addiction to sweet potatoes?" as her problem. Seohyun says she does have things she worries about as well, so someone else asked her to name one, and then Yoona jumped in with, "I want to see Jung Yonghwa!" One or two of the unnies echoed "Jung Yonghwa", there was a bit of laughter from the audience, but then some of the fanboys kind of boo'd, but also a few shouted "Jung Yonghwa!" She didn't hear it learly at first, and she went "Ehhh" at the cheesy move by her unnies, always serious Hyun, Yoona the one said "Bogoshipeo Jung Yonghwa!" Some people said this, Taeyeon: "Also, it seems her ideal type is more defined." Some of the unnies went, "Ohh, is that so?" Seohyun said, "What's weird about it?" and Sooyoung replied: "A friend-like boyfriend...."

( credit: Gogumas Twitter )

Oh my goguma's heart! :3 Let's aww-ing together. See, I can be very extreme delusional fangirl too, mehrong. Please spend a few minutes and listen to CN Blue's Love Light and Imagine ( rumor said that both songs written specially for Seohyun ) ㅡwhy do I sound like a promoter xoxo.

What a long entry.

97. Short Update.

2012-01-22T12:45:00.000+08:00

A good friend was asking while we're sitting nearby bookstore, "What kind of guy do you find appealing?" And the wise yet naive me answered, "The one whom among his naughty, noisy, wicked friends or whatever you call them, he sit in his own and smiles to their mischievous idea. He shouldn't be talkative, I found in silence, there's attraction." "Really? I thought that you like the Cho Kyuhyunish-type? Omg I like the guy who behave like Kim Hyunjoong, the way he laughs, smiles omg omg ( gibberish talks, gibberish talks, edited due to overdose fangirling )"

Oh.

I thought that I'm confronting a serious, question. Out of K-pop. Never mind, Kyuhyun is deserted enough from his hyungs.

( insert cricket sounds )

Holla peeps. This week was waaaaay exaggerating itself, no more serene mood as it like before. I found myself stuck into health problem oh let me pen it down briefly.

So I ate an extra special dinner last Monday night with friends ( precisely two, hanya dua ketul biji ekor kerang rebus, cooked by a friend of a friend of mine. ) without noticing that the scallops were decaying and blahblahblah I found myself displaced on the bed for the whole Wednesday morning till evening. Big sigh. The day before demanded me screwing myself running into toilet ( with half-conscious body ) and vomited at musolla's washroom. I don't even. A close friend told me that I shouldn't blame the food, as it is for us ( or in this case, me ) who should actually make it certain for the food to be edible for a serve. And for the rest of the week, there are always time where stomach feel so much bloated with mineral water and the frenzy feeling you get when you feel like vomit, again and again. Oh the best thing out of this is when you realize that non of other scallops eater found themselves swallow gazillion of colorful tablets like me, which is quite annoying. Dear stomach, wae you no good to master? ;w; xoxo eat good food people, and halal ofc.

Its semester break! :D And Happy CNY!

96. My Wish Machine

2012-01-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

Life wasn't that colorful few days back. I have nothing to be updated literally but since the devoted writer inside me wants to spill out something blahblahblah, here I am again. Give me a second, what did I actually done passed weekdays ago?

I did a countdown on FT Island concert on January 14th ( which is today and I'm screwed ) but unfortunately my chances of getting a place on a very first concert for 2012 flew away the moment I'd appointed to attend an academic schedule ( for the whole semester ) on Saturday. Ha, lucky my foot. My plan on attending BWF Malaysia Open 2012 wasn't getting on the smooth track too omg doomed. After having such a hard time on new year kick-off wishes, I think that I should really jot down the trip to National Zoo in details ( I am boring like that people. ) Uh lately my Wish Machine has been working over time. Almost everyday, a grand desire popped up on mind ( why is current upgraded DSLR looks so tempting? I don't even. ) and its even brimming over the whole cup of brain with overdosed hope and ridiculous plan. How I wish I could stop wishing for awhile and start living my normal life again.

So I met college's administration last Thursday and had a deal with one of the staff regarding my current subjects for this coming final year. So glad that finally I have time to sit down and think what's the best thing for myself and at the same time, improved my communication skills with um more mature fella ( this is not a counselling session or whatever you called them. ) Also I realized about my rusting writing skills which kinda bothering me. I learn that by applying your English on blog into the answer sheet won't secure that much marks duh. My bad grammatical errors are keep haunting then I should keep on reading good materials and practice :) Oh by the way, I'm currently reading the infamous Cecilia Ahern's P/S I Love You ( will consider writing a review if I am that hardworking bookworm /smirk haha )

And please stop procrastinating!

p/s: Semerah's sky is very blue. My proud hometown.

95. First Week On January

2012-01-09T05:43:00.002+08:00

It was a plain busy week with educational stuff but I managed to catch few random moments that I guess worth to be write here. Well, how should I start this ( staring blankly on desktop because of the sudden dumbness on writing )

We had a few quick introductions with new lecturers, so I wonder what kind of impression did I delivered in front of them. Have you ever wonder what kind of thought did you give on your first meeting with new people? I'd always been so curious about this. So the whole course-mates took turn to introduce themselves and I noticed how the lecturer took note on our appearances. When the time comes for me to briefly talked about myself, I was quite blurted. "Nama saya blablahblah, boleh panggil saya etc, etc. Saya berasal dari Johor." And the first thing that she asked was about my actual age which quite a sensitive issue for a 20-er girl like me hahaha. Anyways, I replied her with 22 ( according to 1990's rule ) and she mentioned me about my low tone voice (?) which to her concern shows the first impression of maturity and confident in front of employees. And I'm weirdly flattering due to the small small thing because of....... nah. Nothing. Is the first impression matter for you?

I had to take an off days on my Hangul study, it isn't appropriate to say this but the study consumes quite a big space on my not-so-empty brain when at the same time, I need to give a little more focus on more important matter of life. On the brighter note, I had a random chat with two good seonsangnim from South Korea, Kim SooJin and David Kwon which both of them willing to give an additional instruction on this Hangul learning. I wanna make fun of it, SooJin is younger than me so she worth an eonni and I got an oppa, muahaha who loves Hip-Hop songs ( lol weird eh ) ._. Fighting ne! :3

Last Saturday my friend and I went to have a quick visit at IIUM Gombak due to some private and personal matter and surprisingly the trip was fun ( unfortunately no picture included ) due to our random programs which including Jalan-Jalan Cari Makan around IIUM. I've spending half of my week's budget on the food itself so we had a full stomach for the whole one day. IIUM is amazing place to study, I am flattering ( again ) to be there even though it was like ㅡwe were illegally entered the place lol. In other words, along the short trip we managed to place our foot at IIUM's Center Building, the Library, CFC (?) Building, Kuliyyah of Engineering's Building and Aminah's female dormitory which has the best food ever ( according to the students, I'd tasted Mushroom Chicken's Soup ) Sorry for the lack of details on the place, I'm not sure myself with the surrounding area. Hehehe.

A week of 2012 passed by, I didn't managed to plant a tree even though it was on the list of my new year resolutions. Surely I'll find the time for that little thing. At least I didn't confining myself inside the room for 24/7. ( well, maybe sometimes ) Go go go FHMK!

94. Emotional Dissonance 2

2012-01-02T20:03:00.001+08:00

I've thinking too much few days back.

My upside-down mood is killing me.

How I wish I'm numb at the moment.

Step by step, Faridah Hanim. Step by step. You can do it, InsyaAllah.

Sepahit apapun kejadian, bila membuat semakin kenal dan dekat dengan Allah, adalah kurnia yang amat berharga. - Abdullah Gymnastiar

93. End Chapter 2011

2011-12-31T20:11:00.001+08:00

I cannot believe that 2011 is going to reach the end very soon.

It was like in a blink of eyes ( okay inappropriate exaggerated word but to be honest it was fast, really ) Well, 2011 wasn't my best year to begin with, if I could describe it in word, it just suck. I want to delete the memories, but you know you can never erase it from your life. It wasn't a very smooth sailing ride all these while. I have no idea why but I feel like punching someone real hard ( REAL HARD ) every time I reminiscent the slight of this year memories. There is some hateful to rewind the bitter things so yeah, probably I should skip it and continue writing the good one. I'm still trying to be optimist about life even though every simple things come out with a cost. My eyes were literally force to open and view the other ugly side of the world but I'll keep it as another self reminder. I've plenty of other plan to be achieve on the future, thus I won't let this stupid barrier buried everything. Good luck ne? /pats self.

However to my concern, this year remarks some good point as a fan-girl. I went to few Kpop concerts around the town and accomplished part of my teenage dreams. Hehehe. You would never understand the feeling ( of spending bucks of money on a night stand concerts. ) of being in your dream place if you're lame hopeless people. Dream is exist to be attains, inspiring dream abides to be share! :) In other words, achieving my fan-girl's dream also justify the meaning of killing two birds ( read: many birds ) with one stone. Intentionally went because of SJ but I basically met Big Bang GD, TOP and Seungri, U-KISS, FT Island, Teen-Top, SS501 Park Jungmin, 4Minute, f(x), Miss A, and B1A4. They made my year frigging awesome :') Truth be truth, my 2011 happiness are solely because of K-pop ( aside from family ㅡ well family comes first, people. )

Speaking about relationship reminds how awkward for me to relate myself with surrounding people in this year. I find this matter very intriguing and it requires me to spend a little thought ( later, probably ) Maybe it is because deep down inside, I really do prefer this kind of situation ㅡwhere I never need to move, just stand there in the middle of people, stagnant and motionless. Never making a progress in relationship. In spite of this, I had my own fair share of ups and downs in relationship. Towards the end of 2011 precisely on my birthday, I glad that on my way of making new friends ( though its quaint ) I'm still cherishing the old ones :) ( I hope that I am. )

In the end, I'm just grateful that I've lived to see 2011. I see how much I've grown up and how big the left space for me to grow even more. Thank you 2011, your memories will be dearly miss by me.

Let the old ones go, let the past buried away and live present. Welcome 2012.

92. What Am I Passionate About?

2011-12-25T21:10:00.003+08:00

Heyya people. There is sudden temptation for me to upgrade my Hangul vocabulary. Well at least it ignites back the fire in me and brings out the ball of excitement which almost lost in my lame life. Its been almost a year since the first time I decided to learn Hangul seriously, and guess what I see no different with my language proficiency heheh ( well I can read the Hangul alphabets if you ask which is the only thing I can be proud of )

It's actually not easy to stay in this kind of liberate mood, when you're going to deal with the upcoming real life stuff that catching up super fast. I mean, I'm a student with plenty of other commitment ( exception given if I learn languages by course unfortunately I am not ) and my mood changes kinda rapidly ㅡexcited in the morning, not excited in the evening. Plus, learning basic Grammar is just annoying ( applied to English and Hangul ) Thanks God, Bahasa Melayu has no Past, Present and whatever Participle at all. At all.

I tried to recall the experience of learning my second language, English since.. um kindergarten I guess? All I can say, it was horrible on past years, but I do enjoy it now ( it never completely perfect though. ) Hangul learning is currently tough too especially when I am in my self-learning which depends on own effort. But it is fun experience overall, ( especially if you're linguistic people like me ㅡI wish I am ) I hope at the end of 2012, I can at least write 2 or more paragraphs in Hangul, understand random native Korean tweets on my Twitter lists and also Kyuhyun 서방 tweets about food ㅋㅋ If I am becoming more serious, I might seat for general Malaysian Korean Topik Examination for a certificate ( itupun kalau rajinlah hahahah omg this is funny because I'm lazy orz ) Here I present you my Standard One composition, tadaaaaaa.

여러본 안녕하세요. 잘 지내세요? ㅎㅎㅎ ( lame I know right. )

저는 파하규예요, 조규현 씨 내 남자진구 입니디ㅋㅋ ( out of topic ) 정말 반갑습니다^^ 저는 말레이시아에요 :) 스몰한 살이에요, 대박!ㅎㅎ ( gonna cherish my new age lol ) 저는 학생이다, 대학의 학생 ( the lazy one though ) 지금 학국어를 공보해요, 한곡말은 아조 어려워요 ㅠ ㅠ 아이고 진자! 죄송합나다, 내 Level 1 한곡 말은 정말 아해하기 어려운 이에요ㅋㅋ 글쎄요, 나는 열심히 일을한다면, 난 헐 수있어! :) 화아탕!ㅋㅋ

여러본, 내가 응원 조세요! OMG ㅎㅎㅎ ( ㅡI feel like Gwangsoo )
정말 감사합이다 ^^ 재미있어요~! :D

So I guess learning the third language is what I am currently passionate about! :)

p/s1: For some weird reason, 론닝맨 casts inspire me the most xD
p/s2: 8yearswithTVXQ and still counting :')

91. The Time Traveler - New Age

2011-12-22T22:12:00.004+08:00

After a week of unannounced and sudden hiatus ( not that it never happened before ) I'm finally back. Lots and lots of thing to write because plenty of things happened in a week time. I shall begin with the infamous 16/12 and guess I'll briefly go through it.

Nope, I'd change my mind. I'll write in details.

Well 21 years ago, one little girl named FHMK born into the world and years later, she becomes a monster. Loljk. Yes it was my birth-day and I found it amusing that on the particular day I couldn't online due to some unfinished matter with Celcom bills ( pay your bills on time fella, tsk I know right ) Birthday always and forever will brings an awkward feeling to me and maybe to you too, as everyone around portrayed a pretty bad acts to please the birthday girl :) Anyways to sum up things, I am no longer a teenager, eligible to cast my vote on the next public election ( I can ramble about politic in my blog ㅡwhich I found out quite appealing nowadays as long as it doesn't against the constitution of law ), being allows to drive car on road with license P which marked as the most embarking moment for 2011, I'm trusted to make a more decent and trustful decision in the next argument, those that will determine my future and many other stuffs. The level of maturity, something that eventual and inevitable that one needs to face throughout his or her life.

It's a life revolution.

As some of you readily knowing this, I had kind of row ( read: kinky relationship ) with people on my Facebook timeline. Usually, I avoid having this kind of relation with anyone in real life especially with my peers but yes obviously I wasn't that friendly enough with them. It feels so weird to say this ( I feel pity to myself a little bit ) but I only getting 6 birthday wishes from my fb friends lol no joke man. Yes, I did receive a few others from Twitter ( Jazz ofc I'll kill her if she doesn't hahaha and few close Kpop-mates ) and text but the reality of being deserted away on fb hit me on my head, which I think pretty much enough to indicate my awkwardness among society. Neither that I'm scare of it nor even feel the pain in heart ( nuuuu, the pain... oh the pain ) I feel quite lucky actually. Yes I am, out of 428 REAL LIFE friends ( and several unknown requested which I buat tak tau ) I found the trust-able 6 including my older sister which on latter days I found annoying lol. I don't need countless wishes on my day, I just need a give and take companion. Matesss ILU :')

Lets move on to another topic, shall we?

So last Thursday I finally passed the JPJ freaking road test and gotten my P driving license. Congratulations to myself, I finally succumb to the pressure and beat the JPJ (?) YAY ME! :3 Lol orz I'm just happy with myself. Well, this year wasn't that bad eh? At the end of the day, at least I can now rent a car to stalk Kpop artists who coming to Malaysia hahhahar funneh. Ibu wasn't passed at her first trial but she did better on second chance, so yeah, now everyone can /fly cough ㅡdrive lol. Younger brother did well in PMR, he scored straight A's woots woots hehehe, frankly he's the best among 4 of us. Obviously, I am quite lucky as I always surrounded by people who send out lots of positive vibes, people who couldn't stop encouraging you from now and then. Whenever I feel like I've lost my glittery's life ( my life, it sparkles on dark ) when life's difficult at some point, by the time they gazed up upon me, none of this mattered. On top of that, this is the best present I've ever cherish in my life. Plus minus, life is still good and you can always smile.

Bahagia itu hanya ada pada hati yang Bersyukur dan Bersabar :)

p/s: Font changes ㅋ

90. [FAN ACCOUNT] Mo.A 2011 Live In KL

2011-12-12T00:18:00.008+08:00

Yes I went to the Most Amazing ( Mo.A ) 2011 Live in KL few days back exactly at 3rd December and this is my fan-account which I just write it lazily, read it if you want (warning: very long) Sorry for the lack of pictures, my seat wasn't the best one to shoot them lol neither was it the closest ( free-seating oh hello again ) I did some fan-cam but its better for all of you to search for more decent one from YouTube. Anyway the concert was awesome thanks to the list of the performers ( hint hint! I was shrieking at my long distance boyfriend lol okay crap.)

AT THE KLIA:

Due to the misunderstanding information from the flight schedule stalker (?) I was pretty much sure of not going to welcome SJ at KLIA ( I should really stick at the intention, because at the end of the day, I didn't /again/ met SJ at airport -_-) Misheard the afternoon flight that brought along f(x) and Miss A already arrived the airport at 4PM, I felt a little bit of the excitement. Without any concrete plan ( I'm always like this lol ), I reach KLIA at 8PM and wandering there with almost 300-350 fans waiting for KE671 and TG419 which came from Incheon and Bangkok respectively. Being teased by the security about the flight and blahblahblah, we were still standing in front of the VIP lane until late 10.50PM. Some of the fans went off to the 3rd floor ( international arrival hall ) while some of us busying life with Twitter updates.

And yeah, as much as you know YeHyukMinWook didn't use the arrival hall as they went straight to One World Hotel from the airport. I was amazingly sleepy and bored, but I did catch some good moments at KLIA. Like how the fans ran almost 500 meters around KLIA because some of them thought that SJ already reach the security's white van. Muahahaha funneh. At the end of the day, I didn't met SJ again. They're one kind of expert ninja ( especially around KLIA ). Kudos to those who met TeukHae at the arrival hall, me iz jelly.

PRIOR TO THE CONCERT:

I wake up pretty early in the morning due to the low-kick temperature which cause me a little bit shivering, I went to get ready and do some stuff. So I asked about KyuShinWon flight schedule to my t-list, and noticed that they'll be here joining others at 4PM MST. It was quite late, plus they need to depart back to Incheon at the same day. "Poor my bb Kyu, he must be worn out." I murmured to myself. Hello ㅡthis is not a fan-fic lmao. Promised to meet another friend at KL Sentral around 11AM, I went out bringing my big backpack with all fan-girling stuff and along the way, I slept. Olalah, being a runaway fan-girl is tiring.

Yes, never once in my life went to Kelana Jaya so I was kinda blurred but its okay, the blurriness wasn't that bad lol. We departed from KL Sentral at 1PM and reach the current place which is the Kelana Jaya LRT/Bus Station. I even met some ELFs at KLIA and had a short chit-chat with them while waiting for Rapid KL Bus T624 to MBPJ Stadium. Around 2PM we reach at the stadium, it was demmm gorgeous ( compared to Merdeka Stadium ) though a little bit old, we can see the cracks around. I went around to collect and paid my tickets before heading to the food/stalls section. Crowded as usual, but I didn't buy anything (except foods), I have lack of shopping desirableness I tell you lol.

We waited in front of Gate 2 and someone gives us the Sungmin's hand-banner as well as the Superman's fanchant. Reading the Twitter updates to kill the time, and noticed that Yesung's going to sing It Has To Be You, I was flabbergasted and started to exaggerate around lol. Me iz big fan of the song okay. Around 5PM, people around started to queue in front of the gate ( which was very stupid I think because the gate only opened at 6.45PM ) It was really a bad experience, worst than KMW. Almost fainted waiting and finally the security started to let us in but they were checking everyone's bag slowly, very slow and even when the big screen started to display the opening VCR, there were still many fans out there stuck outside of the stadium -_-

THE CONCERT:

Concert started late due to the big screen on the right wing doesn't works out well. It displayed green color lol and the audio wasn't very nice! Oh what a failure, I can't relate anything with all of them on the stage. Anyway Miss A was the first act of the night. They were amazing of course, I'm might not a big fan of them but their songs are pretty catchy so yes I loike them lol. Definitely gonna pay more attention on this group now :) They came out with black attire and performed Good Bye Baby as the opening track, followed up with Breathe, Help Me, Love Alone, Lady Gaga's Poker Face and ended up with Good Girl, Bad Girl. I was eyeing Jia and Fei lol. But Miss A is totally the definition of gorgeous, with Suzy and Min. A group of fan-boys behind me were spazzing hard when Jia and Suzy on the big screen haha. They also taught us how to dance the GGBG infamous steps "You don't know me, so shut up boy! Shut up, shut up!". Lol it was fun!

Next up was B1A4. I thought the official BANA's color is yellow ㅡbanana? But it turns out to be light pink (?) In the sea of sapphire blue ocean, there're quite a number of pinky's light-stick which left me with quite a good impression about this rookie's group. Beautiful Target was daebak! Lol this noona was enjoying every minutes along the song XD. "B1AAAA4. AM I YOUR TARGET?" Hey, I heard it live baby, swag. And oh my "I like it like it like it!" HAHAA. I noticed that Baro was very hyped during the concert, he jumped here and there and Jinyoung's voice is very niseu. During O.K we did the "You~~~~" ( the finger moving part ) and it was very funny lmao. Seems that the only fans who enjoyed B1A4 performance at our section were this noonas /self-pointing. I haven't listen to their new single Only One and My Love, so I just screaming as usual when they performed the song. Only Learn The Bad Things was damn cute lol. Overall I was quite spazzing during B1A4, don't get me wrong. I was still well seated and well behave at the moment /cough.

So afterwards, its f(x) performing. Krystal was absent due to the busy schedule on her sitcom, so it was four of them at the night. Not a big fan but they were very cool so yes, turns on! Victoria ( fan-boys behind shouted "Mama Vic!" ) Luna (adorbs ;~;) Sulli (she's freaking tall lol and sweet too) as well as Amber ( smart as always ) performing La Cha Ta, Nu ABO, Is It Okay? (which is the Paradise Ranch OST, found out its very heart-warming, I should watch the drama. No I haven't watch it, mianhae Changmin lol ), Hot Summer and Pinocchio. Amber wore shade throughout the performance which quite weird but it wasn't affected her mood, she was really hyped! Count Luna in, she was the queen of fan-service at that night. She kissed Sulli and Vic cheeks and running around here and there lol. Vic spoke fluent Mandarin, group of girls shouted "Song Xian, wo ai ni." which I found out very endearing :') I am actually supposed to spazz bout Vic, can't believe that I saw her after watching We Got Married lmfao. Harro Nichkhun waifu, okay crap.

SuJu. Finally.

I definitely will cry a basin if I didn't attend this concert which cause by many factors. Part of them are barely about a guy named Park Jungsoo, exaggerates Yesung, Marry You, It Has To Be You, Hyukjae's blonde hair and definite reason for Kyuhyun. Park Jungsooooooo, why are you so heart-warming, leader? The moment he entered the stage, each times he sang his parts and each times big screen focused on him, everyone cheering their lungs out. The first track was Superman, and I only managed to chant the "Bam bam bam bam bam" part lol and yes "THE LAST MAN STANDING!" was super loud. They continued with A-CHA and Mr. Simple. Oh well, the LIVE version was way much better so I expect an encore on Super Show 4 prrriiizzz? The introduction was hilarious, I can't really heard it well but I was kind of pretending that I heard it very clear okay lolz. Everyone's introduce with "Apa Khabar...." in the front, but Yesung exaggerates more, he was shouting wtf. I thought he was mad or whut lmao. "APA KAPA? APA KAPA? APA KAPAA?!" Lmao even I write it exaggeratedly. Oh you so child Yeye how can I leave you behind ;~~~; Teukie's introduction was equal funnier, he shouted "Assalamualaikum?" thrice oh my god wtf is happening lmao .___. He was enjoying it, and even asked "Nama saya?" and the crowd went insane and answered "Park Jungsoo~!" ( including me lol ). Kyuhyun's intro was somehow decent the only thing was that Siwon's head covered Kyu face when he turns up on big screen. I was like, "Siwon, I kill you." Lol jk.

Yesung took off the stage with It Has To Be You. How can I describe this. He let us sang the second chorus just like in Super Show 3 omg this is so heart-warming. His voice almost moved me into tears, okay again. Yesung could you just stay here and........ wtv it is. The whole stadium was totally sapphire blue, the crowd singing along on top of that and it was epic beautiful. Malaysia really loves Yesung and vice versa. Lol okay. Then the rest came in and they sang ballad song, Memories. Flawless SJ singing ballad is flawless. Even Eunhyuk and Shindong looked so much serious and I was totally flail alongside the melody, it was beautiful! Oh Hyukjae's blonde hair, we did it Malaysian ELFs, I mean, I'm glad that I finally saw it for the first and the last time the infamous blonde before he changed it to dark brown. Urgh, it looked freaking soft *____* Anyways, they continued with Marry You asjkfjgkglddnnfnf /head-desk/ this is so romantic. Kyuhyun, wae you no looked at me? I screamed at you all the time lmao. I did it seriously, together with a Chinese lady in front of me. She's quiet at time but when Kyuhyun appeared she screamed the loudest lol, I was like "No this is not correct. I need to scream louder than her!" and wallah, welcomed sore-throat. He looked tired though, um yeah. Kyuhyun bb wasn't very bright that night, he was kind of serious. Whatever, my bb is precious. They ended up throwing t-shirt with signatures to the people around Rock Zone, too bad we were too far away (as if I'll fight over Kyu-shirt with others) Finally the boys ended the night with Bonamana and Sorry Sorry. I was in total hype and amazed with myself, because I still remember Sorry Sorry fan-chant! Ide lol ;~;

The show ended with everyone joining SuJu on stage, line up, bow to the audience and went WE WILL COMEBACK SOON. Teuk was the last to disappear from stage after waving the fans, my tear were brimming. He is one kind of leader :') We went out of the stadium and waited for their vans to come out of the place. The securities were blocking the road and my friend saw B1A4's Gongchan waved to the fans inside the van. Cute tiger :3 Me iz short so I see nothing. We waited for bus to come and it was amazingly smooth. Reach KL Sentral and met a group of ladies from UKM and spazz with them about Kpop.

Life is great after all.

ㅡENDㅡ

THIS & THAT:

1) Purchasing a last minute ticket from my Twitter-list, RM100 for free-seating. Damn, it was one of the most daebak tickets I've ever bought.

2) Kelana Jaya Line from KL Sentral was totally crowded due to the dysfunctional ticketing machine and I was like "WHY MUST TODAY?" Yeah 30 minutes queuing wasn't that bad though.
3) Had a bad sore-throat after concert, worst than KMW. Thanks to Strepsils, my mum didn't really noticed it lol.
4) My SJ lightstick's battery is worn out already lol, my sapphire blue's fade away heh. How come ;~;

89. Edisi Khas: Birthday Cik Jazz

2011-12-08T00:44:00.005+08:00

Entri khas yang ditulis dalam Bahasa Melayu bersempena ulangtahun kelahiran Cik Jazzeyqa Ahamad Jailani, kawan baik merangkap rakan seperjuangan sejak zaman Tadika Kemas lagi.

"A friend is someone you can be alone with and have nothing to do and not be able to think of anything to say and be comfortable in the silence."

Tahun 1996, aku mendaftar masuk ke Tadika Kemas SK XX area Batu Pahat, Johor dan menjadi pemakai rasmi baju kotak-kotak merah ala-ala kain alas meja tu. Jazzeyqa bukanlah kawan aku sangat sebab dia sentiasa bersama sepupunya yang bermuka mat saleh ( ye aku ingat lagi dia Jazz ) dan aku baik pulak dengan anak Cikgu Samidah, Nadia Shafiqah. Aku juga kurang baik dengan Yan, ( yang ironinya menjadi geng sekepala kami selepas itu ) kerana dia dengan kejamnya telah mengoyakkan buku mewarna aku selepas berlaku pertengkaran kecil mengenai warna sebenar lada. Iya, lada. Yan dengan semangat mengatakan lada berwarna merah, sedangkan aku yang lebih cerdas ( percayalah hahah ) mewarnakan lada tersebut dengan warna hijau ( lada muda la kononnya ). Darjah 1, 2 dan 3 Anggerik aku jadi lebih baik sikit, jadi aku pun tegur la Jazzeyqa. Kami menjadi kawan rapat lepas dilantik sebagai pengawas sekolah zaman 4, 5 dan 6 Maju agaknya. Entahlah, aku pun dah tak berapa ingat.

Sekolah menengah rendah XX (2003-2005) menjadi saksi bagaimana kami menghancurkan masa depan masing-masing dengan benda-benda kurang berfaedah bersama-sama 2 lagi orang geng sekepala, Yan, dan Tika. Tahun ke-2, kami ada sedikit (baca: banyak) crush pada seorang /coughramaicough/ pengawas Cina yang sangat cute (serious, dia comel macam Jay Chou) jadi hampir sepanjang masa kami berempat gossip/stalk habis mamat tersebut sampai dia pun kenal kami berempat. Dengar cerita mamat terbabit sekarang ambil course engineering di UTM ( stalk habis lol ). Kami memang kaki gossip ( baca: SANGAT ), bukan sahaja dalam sekolah malahan berita luar sekolah ( ex: Akademi Fantasia yang menjadi kegilaan ramai waktu itu, Jazz minat habis dengan Zahid Oren tersebut ) Habis PMR, Jazz seingat aku memberitahu bahawa dia mungkin akan berpindah ke sekolah teknik jadi kami bertiga sangat sedih siap buat majlis perpisahan lagi. Tup-tup yang tak boleh blahnya, dia ada jugak di Tingkatan 4 sekolah sama, cuma kelas sahaja berbeza. Memang lah.

Meskipun begitu, kami masih segila 3 tahun pertama, malah lebih membimbangkan kami langsung tak buat kerja Matematik Tambahan. Rohana cuma join sekaki apabila kelas dirombak tahun 2006 ( dia keseorangan, kesian aku ingat lagi haha. Dia tarik kerusi dan tanya aku "Ada orang duduk kat sini tak?" dan kami berlima jadi kawan rapat ) Kami bukanlah kawan waktu gembira sahaja, waktu sedih pun masih bersama. Tahun 2006 kami berlima pergi Kem Tunas Bestari Johor Corp, di mana satu malam itu diadakan Malam Keinsafan ( iya, malam yang selalu suruh kita menangis pasal ibu ayah tu ) Jazz yang duduk sebelah aku mula menangis ( atas sebab yang kami berdua je tahu ) dan aku pun ikut menangis. Dan sampai sekarang, dia masih tak nak mengaku yang dia menangis dulu dari aku.

Dalam 5 tahun ini, entah berapa banyak perjanjian pernah kami buat bersama-sama. Oleh kerana aku ini seorang pengumpul barang antik, penuhlah kotak rahsia aku dengan kertas-kertas mengarut contengan waktu sekolah menengah dulu. Serius, aku simpan lagi semuanya. Dari kertas tisu jodoh-jodoh sampai la ke sticker drama My Girl/Princess Hour, CD cetak rompak Jay Chou hadiah daripada Yan ke Perjanjian Hadiah dan Perjanjian Selepas SPM. Semua kad raya Jazz beri, aku masih simpan lagi. Aku sayang nak buang semua ni. ( mari kita ramai-ramai kata "Aww" sekarang. )

Aku dan Jazz tak pernah sambut hari lahir di kelas, kami paling muda ( paling bangga? ) Disember pula bulan cuti sekolah. Memang kesianlah. Tapi paling kurang pun aku masih ada Jazz, kan? Aku tak tahulah bila kami akan jumpa lagi, mungkin rasa janggal itu akan ada. Pedulilah janggal, aku tak kisah pun. Datanglah 10-20 tahun lagi, Insyaallah kawan tetap kawan :-) Jazz, aku kangen. Kangen sama kamu 4 orang. HAHA :')

Selamat Hari Lahir, kawan.
The Left-handed Girl Sitting Besides You in Class 3A.

Huduh tulisan anda Jazz.

p/s: Hey I'll post my Mo.A fan-account later.

88. November's Collage

2011-11-30T01:11:00.007+08:00

It's 1230am and I'm kinda run out of ideas on what to do. Waiting for MAMA Awards to finish maybe but seriously, what can I expect from /lousy/ Kpop event like that, where the attendance of the artist holds a significance to the winning lists lol. Maybe I should eat something ( bored introduction, very bored. )

Woohoo! November's gonna ends very soon and my lucky month, December peeks up with hundred of surprises. Nah, I don't like surprise. It gives you some kind of insecure feeling, and I don't like to feel insecure. Yet I love December. Enough of early month rambling, I shall shed of some of the stereotypes that I subconsciously apply to myself and on my writing. I find it very constrictive and stifling. I want to do something that is beyond my daily routine or out of the usual me ( of course, within my own boundary of morality )

Cliche as it might seems but here's the current wishlist:

a) Visiting National Zoo ( I did some web-browsing yesterday about the place, can't wait to feed those big fat elephant )

b) Hills climbing ( no specific reason lol, I just want to feel nature bwahaha lame )

c) MO.A 2011 Live In Malaysia, yay for that! :-)

I like the random me, but isn't it sounds too much leisure for a 20-er girl? I am supposed to study and do well on examination but then again, I do not want the heavier affairs blinded me from seeing the greener side of life. Any kind of ways, do expect me to be less productive on 2012 due to the major fail in management of money. Careless, I will flood Twitter with more Churp-Churp Advertisement lmao.

I am so random o/

87. One Step Closer

2011-11-26T15:30:00.003+08:00

It's been a while.

Well, life was pretty much dull due to the repeatable activities ( sleep, eat, surfing, gibberish talk, eat, sleep ) but who cares, I like it myself :-) What I did mostly was trolling myself on Twitter and football fever is officially /on/ around Malaysia, so everyone was like "I've Harimau Muda's jersey, are you jealous?" "I've shake hand with Nazmi Faiz, r yu jelly?" and yeah. So on and so forth, blog's statistic was increasing tremendously ( is like really to the highest peak ) due to the search of "Muslim Ahmad" "Jersey 24 Muslim Ahmad" "Muslim Ahmad Twitter" and blahblahblah. Lol, wasn't expect it the moment I wrote previous entry, really, it was quite blurted. Anyway, hello for your sudden visit with the same cause as above, I would like to apologize and wanna state here that, Muslim Ahmad up to the day, still hasn't create any Twitter account. Aww. I feel so weirdly fame.

( inserts cricket sound )

/cough last Sunday, I went for a 12 hours non-stop (breath-taking, I did stop few times of course) watching Japanese drama, Orthros No Inu which airing with 9 episodes on Japanese TV last 2009. It was surprisingly fun, extra fun watching two eye-candies, Hideaki Takizawa and Nishikido Ryo acting together as a long lost brother owning a God's Hand and Devil's Hand respectively. Aww, definitely a must watch show if you want to be melted with mysterious guy Ryuzaki Shinji asjklgkfnds he is mesmerizing everyone I tell you ;~; I was drooling much when Tackey did a romantic scene with Asami-chan puhaha. It wasn't a directly romantic acts like we used to watch on typical drama, it just a slightly strong gaze and decent skin-ship askdnfnfkgjkmarry me Tackeyyy ;AAA; ( this girl deserves a slap )

I've number of things to pen on here ( about deep thought ) but I don't know if it appropriate to mention it at the moment. Anyways, maybe in the next entries :) It's raining/flood season in Malaysia, and winter's on the other part of globe, take good care and don't fall sick! Oh, Breaking Dawn's Soundtrack, A Thousand Years is so good to hear, beautiful ;~;

See ya people.
p/s: Salam Maal Hijrah *^^*

86. Team Malaysia Weeeh

2011-11-18T17:32:00.002+08:00

So, how does it feel to be a little more famous than usual?

I probably will elaborate more crap things from the above topic if you don't mind. Heheh. A few days back, a good friend of mine at high-school, Shahril Sahak (definitely should put this as Anonymous but oh well, a special tribute to you-know-who) won himself a 2011 SEA Games Silver medal for men's 50m rifle prone. Yay, a big clap for him, wasn't that bad for a rookie's debut of the games! He was a nice classmate, a spazzing club-mates and on other way, a one day shooting coach for me. Remember when he scolded me badly during the shooting practices because I couldn't see what kind of point should I shoot at hahaha. Pity me, I was such a bad-sighted girl obviously.

All after all, surprisingly I emerged as the top 1 shooter among two clubs muahaha (okay swagging time). The president told me that I'm potentially to become one of those Johorian atlet pelapis lmfao despite my err not-so-young age at the moment. Very well said, Phnew and Cikgu Mahat. Lol, swagging baby. Back to Shahril, once the whole class (which consisted of a very small population ㅡ16 students) congratulated him for winning a gold medal at Mini Olympics and blahblablah we made a simple fan-board for him, and fanning him like a loyal fans (just because winning a gold medal = winning more money lol) yes we were like a family (a family of retard people). We're still retarded after 2 years, even Shahril promised of giving us a slightly gaze of Modo Modi (fyi it is the SEA Games mascot, no way people, I want money)

Oh well.

What's the point of writing this?

I miss them, the whole course-mates of Cengal batch 2008-2009.

Nah, I'm just kidding. It just a mere rambling in conjunction of 2011 SEA Games Jakarta-Palembang which I followed constantly. Tehehe. Anyway on a related stuff, I had an amazing day last (... I forgot the day). Ahh.. had a silly Twitter conversation with @TeamMsia, which is the official Team Malaysia's on Twitter, found out that every tweets were very empty-headed to the core. Nonetheless, no harm given if I post it here lol. (be prepare with massive flood of vomit attack! Check my timeline if you want :P)

TeamMsia : Siapa nak tengok video-video player Malaysia lagi? Who is your favorite Malaysian footballer?

Dumb Me : (blank, due to much laugh while tweeting about Running Man) nombor 4! Fadhli Shas! Hahaha :D (gelak cover)

TeamMsia : Fadhli Shas? Ok kami akan cuba bawakan video exclusive Fadhli Shas. What about Muslim Ahmad? (siooooot, seriously I cracked the most here, trading player ke admin? lmao)

Me : Muslim Ahmad pun boleh jugak. Good luck Malaysia, send my regards to them. (trololol cover)

TeamMsia : Thanks a lot. Will tell them that! If you were here, what would you ask them? (gila soalan)

Me : (since I was 멍 at the moment, forgive me for the very-da-skema-answer) Wouldn't ask anything. Just hope that they can control their emotion on field, that will helps the team a lot! :)

TeamMsia : Okay, thanks!

/hmmpft.

Honestly, I can just asked them any crap questions if I have that guts (may i know if you don't mind, how many of you are still single? oh lame lmfaotrolololol) But, oh well. Chance flies away. However to my concern, an interviewed video was actually uploaded by the admin next morning. My hope fails me. Its Muslim Ahmad.

Anyways, thanks for the sudden interview, I feel a little more famous, at least for that day. Thick skin as usual, I dedicated this video for myself (pats self) syabas heh.

[CLICK HERE FOR THE LINK] Mesej dari Muslim Ahmad, pemain pertahanan squad U-23 Malaysia. And check out the Captain Baddrol Bakhtiar's message at the same site as well!

(credit: @TeamMsia on Twitter)

I am officially chi~aw.

85. A Perfect 111111 Day

2011-11-11T23:52:00.011+08:00

I just spend almost two hours this evening inside the bathroom, designing my hair (almost the same meaning as self-cutting hair). Yes, the last time I was there for more than an hour when I was crying after I had an injustice feeling toward my sister, it was ages ago. Back to the hair things, I'm kind of feel the needs of cutting hair before semester break and here I am. My messy hair needs some explanation, as mess and untidy as rubbish as a bush as you can imagine. It wasn't nice to cut it alone (should we call it as a pair game?) but at least I noticed how talented I am holding a scissor, mirror and comb in a row. The result wasn't very praiseworthy anyway. Oh well. Crap.

11.11.11 came again after 100 years, a few days passed Aidil Adha and amazingly its on Friday. What does it mean to me personally? Today aside from styling my own hair, I learn something about obsession. Obsession ㅡit consumed your energy, which can be used to praise God, reading books or even tweeting on web. When you're obsessed, your attention will only about that one thing which will end up wasting all your time and gain nothing by doing it. I'm thinking of reducing the rate of obsession toward this /man. I should have something else to be obsessed about, which I'm particularly sure to own it one day. Time to get back into reality, people.

Oh and 11.11.11 only happens once in a life time. Same goes to 12.11.11 or 16.12.90 or even 21.01.1991 and all our daily date. It only happens once in a life time. The only thing that makes today sounds /cough/ special is because of the sequences of the number, other than that you better appreciate life wohoo.

p/s: The feeling when you know you've finished one semester. Homai. Syukur.

Oh ada semester lain lagi. Homai.

Definitely not me

84. Love-Hate-Life-Angel [Tag]

2011-11-01T21:45:00.001+08:00

I was tagged by Miss Aisya Sakura few days ago. Thanks a lot Aisya. Let me answer the tag now. This is the list of strict rules:

1. You must post this rules. 2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal. 3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post. And create 11 new questions for the people you tagged to answer. 4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them to the post. 5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her. 6. No tags back. 7. No stuff in the tagging section about "You're tagged if you're reading this" you legitimately (aka really, trust, with all honesty) have to tagged 11 people.

11 Things About Me Y'All (which I supposed quite a lame question)

| I'm planning to search some online job to earn extra money. Oh screw fan-girl life. Anywhere available? o/

| Have I told you this? My favorite Hogwarts Professor is Severus Snape. A basin tear dedicated to him. RIP in my memory.

| I have this love-hate relationship with my Twitter lists. Lmao.

| When I was 4, together with older sister, we almost burned our nanny's house at Kuantan. All due to the matches. Oh awesome.

| I was grown up listening to Jamal Abdillah's song. Yes, he is my dad's favvy singer. And Sudirman for mum. Don't be surprised if one day I decided to change the bgm song to one of those singer's song lmao.

| My new year resolution is to cook at least one edible/proper food and hell, never once I hold the pan yet. Screw busy life as a fan-girl /cough.

| I am very interested on cooking though. Once arrived at bookstore, I'll check it out the cookies section. Yay. Hahar.

| The-kind-of-student-who-works-behind-the-scene. I am no famous. Fahaㅡwho?

| Had a good trip travelling around KL due to fan-girl activities *bow* who am I without chuu?

| I rarely burst my anger in front of people. So, people always assumed me the kind of easy bullied girl. Hey you, wanna see Hulk female version? Okay kidding. HAHA.

| I've found a tiny part of me in one of TeenTop KLIA fancam on Youtube. Naah, the video is too awesome for public view, so I won't reveal it lmao /facepalm/

Questions from Aisya:

1) What's your nickname?

| Fahaaaaa and I'm very particular about honorifics :------)

2) What's your favorite hand-phone brand?

| I know this is so outdated but Nokia.

3) Do you like to eat Maggi?

| Preferably curry flavor. A big no no to Mamee though.

4) What do you think about Korea?

| As a nation, Korea is beautiful country that I would like to travel one day (as skema as possible)

5) What type of friend are you?

| Awkward friend. Sometimes I show no emotion (imagine Squidward Tentacles) He knows everyone around him is stupid and he hates everything. He complaints a lot and he is a little depressed. Oh, he thinks Spongebob is annoying but he secretly loves him.

6) Do you support our country football team?

| Whatchu think?

7) Who's you favorite Malaysian football player? Give one only.

| Rajagopal /coughcough. He was an ex-Malaysian player ofc. Anyways, Jersey number 1 (sorry, number is not on list) tehehe.

8) Who's your idol?

| I'm quite certain about this one. He is my father, ayah, appa. Other than that, I've many people to get me motivated from student life to fangirling, from photography field to crapping skills.

9) Have you ever hope that you can turn back the time to your previous life?

ㅡYes this is what I want. Obviously. But the fact is when the past has gone, it doesn't mean we have lost our happiness. Happiness is not a memory, its everywhere. I am happy as I am now :)

10) How often do you brush your teeth in a day?

| Truth be truth, twice. Morning and before sleep.

11) What's your favorite color?

| Greeeeeeeeen and black.

My 11 Danjerios Questions.

1) Any favorite blog you would like to recommend me to read? Why?

2) Have you ever fan-girling/fan-boying over something/someone? Elaborate. (Lmao this.)

3) Do you think you're independent girl/boy?

4) Any ironic life experience to share?

5) What do you expect to see from yourself 5 years from now?

6) Any hidden talent that other people do not know about you?

7) Why did you choose to create a blog on the first place?

8) Are my questions over the limit? Sorry, sorry.

9) Money is not everything. Do you agree with the statement?

10) Recommend me a good place for camping? Lmao.

11) Is tagging people necessary? Elaborate. Again. HAHA.

I was like preparing questions for English test. Mkay, see my tag in your chatbox. Am I done? See ya people ヽ(；▽；)ノ

83. There Is Something Wrong With Me

2011-10-29T07:33:00.002+08:00

The previous 2 months in college were very torturing. Whether I was noticing it or not, all the learning coursework were full with pressure/dis-enjoyable and it was obviously far distance from the learning objectives. Personally, for me everything was like ㅡas long as you've finished the works and as long as you get the marks. And, yeah. Done. Some thought came and I realized how much I was lack with pure smile (I did laughing when watching Kpop stuff ofc) or whatever you called it. It’s insane as if when you look yourself at the mirror and saw the weak part of you. Where is the smiley old me had gone? And millions of sorry for making this blog some kind of emo-ing, ranting place. I was supposed to keep a good memory in mind but all I'd experience up to the days were nightmare. Life isn't all about sweet stuff anyways.

I have a few issues to be deal with the university management in Malaysia which bother me in some kind of ways. But isn't it inappropriate to post it as the blog entry? Whatever. No one cares -.- Also, I did some random job hunting (although I have a year more to finish the study) and was kind of star-struck, well more to thunder-struck. Under-graduate students like me should pay more attention to at least preparing themselves with those undefined requirements from employee. Ex: "Fresh graduates are welcome to apply the job. Priority will be given to those who own a vehicle." Noob. November 4th is fast approaching. Yes, yes, yes! Special 3 cheers for being so awesome day. Lol being secretive as I could be, this isn't the perfect time to reveal the best thing about the day. Just wait, if you want to or whatever it is. In case you are wondering, it kind of related with free stuff. Guess who's free on the day onward?

On the random note, I went to watch 2AM 3D at Mid Valley together with @fyda_bb last October 17th. How awesome is 2AM in the eyes of a CassElfs? It's daebak like seriously. HAAHAHA. Okay I was exaggerated just now, the 3D ticket was supposed to be RM14+ and there was some hidden charge and stuff which cost the price to overflowed increase almost to RM20. As far as I could forecast, the actual ticket price for Super Show 3 3D in Malaysia (as if it will be shown here) should be somewhere around this too. Okay back to 2AM. With the RM20 ticket, I was served with a 3D glasses, a self-picture with 2AM placard/banner (I exchanged hand with Seulong lmao) and an empty cinema. Seriously, it was like less than 10 people at that time (?) lolol and the whole fan-girls had fun screaming like real concert of course. One Chinese girl behind me was melting much when Jokwon whispered "Saranghaeyo" lmao. Jinwoon maknae was damn near (if you wear the glasses ofc) and I enjoyed their songs well although up to the point, I only can recall Even If I Die and You Wouldn't Answer My Call as the best.

I went to search for this song along the late evening. Its Sailormoon's first opening song. Hehehe. Bye.

82. All The Small Things About Ironic Life

2011-10-20T20:21:00.003+08:00

What if I say that I am currently residing at home, BP-home? Mad?

Since its Thursday, everyone must be freaking annoyed with my sudden move to hometown but oh well, I am here because I want to be here. Lame excuse I know. But the feeling is indescribable, in any kind of awesomeness. Its like a child feeds with a candy, I shut myself at the corner and starts enjoying my time ㅡheaven's world. Ibu was gardening when I arrived and ayah lost with his fishing equipment, the house is practically in serene mode taking the point that nobody except me coming home on weekdays. I assumed that ibu was actually slept in our room (3 girls babe) because of the left over on bed, and I know that she misses us. I AM HOME MUM! ♥

And life is very ironic indeed.

2006. When I was a geek form 4 high-school student there was never ever a slice of thought passed through my head on getting into the art stream. Everyone was demanding to enter the Biology & Physics stream until it reaches one point that a science class actually occupied almost 40+ students. I guess one of the reason /WE/ were fail to adapt with the environment was due to overcapacity classmates. Anyways, I thought I was very into Biology, all the gaga on wearing white hand gloves and negative perception on those who took art, how can I forget it. When conscience finally hit me, I swear that I was only craze over the green matter on the subject. And 4 of you (which I predict you know who you are) might not believe this, art is freaking enjoyable. I enjoy every second of my writing time, my language books, my creative sketching time, my travelling moment, I treasure my photo-blogging very much. Oh well. I'm born against art. Life is ironic.

Saya: Saya gembira baca karya anda.
TunBojaBistara: Anda. Terima kasih :)

I am certainly sure with myself that I just finished interpreting this complicated poem in this complicated blog. And since when is the name become Anda.

2010. I first met this R girl, she was pretty swank herself with that darn sarcastic looks and brag voice to everyone. She sat beside me at Math class yet I never talked to her, maybe because I was quite swank myself. Oh well. One close friend told me that R is like a super blank girl with super straight annoying tone which I couldn't care more but to agree with the opinion. In spite of that, R always visited my room for some weird reasons and in a short time she became my room-mates /short enough?/ And to make everything turns up-side-down, I was actually went back hometown together with her yesterday. She treats me with candies, and I shared with her some curry ban. See, above all, life is really ironic.

After all the typical whining about this and that, I am finally home, mum. And I've plenty of things to tell you, about how I managed to get into top 7 OB Group, about my awkward relationship with real life friends, about my failure in exam, about this and about that, BUT /cue to dramatic scene/ there is something hinder the moment. Oh well. How I wish that I'm not the kind of passive girl who afraid to tell her story to everyone. Isn't it ironic? Being at home and being speechless. Don't you think? Don't you think?

Well. I might a Korean boy-bands fan-girl, but in any kind of ways, ddokbokki, seaweed soup and kimchi doesn't taste good in my mouth. Really. Ironic. Kbye. HAHA.

81. When You Close Your Eyes And Think of Me

2011-10-15T01:19:00.001+08:00

It's been a week since the last entry. Well a typical week of a student that's completely packed with schedule, unfinished assignments, gossiping with the rest of other female course-mates and getting fever. Fever. Oh screwed all those plan on weekend. Due to this fever, I've been stuck inside room wearing black sweater all hours and eating piles of medicine, fixing my melancholic mood about life and yes, gained nothing because I was pampered with uneven sleeping hours. And it's tiring. Believe me, I was so tempted to get back home, leaving all this study chaos and sit at kitchen watching ibu cooks healthy food for me. But I know that I can't just leave and gone. Sunday's MOT student convention and our group succeed to finale Top 7, how awesome is that. Em not quite sure though. I hope this public chance will improve my blahblahblah, who cares xoxo. Anyways, all praise to Allah for all the good and the bad things.

Ibu called me on Wednesday and told me that Jeehan will sit for her MUET this week which also mean that I should spend a little time to give her motivation plus tips and stuff. Which I don't know why. And Imeen just finished his PMR stuff and I haven't told him that if he managed to score praiseworthy result, I'll give him a brand new NIKE football which I found out become his latest craze at the moment. Trying to become a good sister duhh? Kaklong borrowed my camera for the whole 2 weeks which I'd posted it via express post. Well, not quite decent decision considering the effect of posting electronic gadget and blahblahblah, /kill me now. Tell me the condition of my bb camera ;w; Ayah on the other hands, called me after I finished my Takaful exam and asked me to eat medicine and stuff related with my study's loan. Well, family bonding through phone. I miss you guys, really. Two and a half weeks are too much, really ㅠ~ㅠ

I've been thinking a lot nowadays about my life and the future lies behind it. Having an unsure problem about future jobs but I am quite positive with it. Even if I was destined to be jobless etc etc due to lameness in study which currently starts to bug on me, I'll be like helping ayah in his farm, maybe manage his business as I'm a graduated major business student. Maybe I can improve my English skills and then take education course blahblahblah, and teach the kindergarten pupils. If fangirling taken into consideration, I might also end up learning Hangul and become a translator, well who know anyways. I just want to do anything that comfort my needs in and out. No need fancy job, countless salary when you're lost amidst everything around you.

You know what, I am worry about myself. But on top of that, I always keep this in my heart, everyone own His blessing and gifts. Indeed Allah knows while we're not. Happy 26th birthday to SJ Lee Donghae, lots of love from me ♥

80. Stormy, But It Can't Be Rain Forever

2011-10-06T15:13:00.001+08:00

When I decided that I should write an entry in this blog, I was actually screwed up with a very serious study matter that nobody could never imagine that it will befall upon me. And, yes it still haunting me. In every second I breath. Can you just wake me up when November 4th arrive? I'm not sure how many "friends" out there back mouthing about me due to the matter but hell-o, I'm just gonna shut the wtv out. I've many things to write about this but I know it just a matter of time. Oh well. I've taken life too serious. I seems so carefree about life when the fact is not. I have always denied myself a chance to fail. Which cause me become hard to accept and face risk. When at the end of the day, it is just a plain paper of examination ㅡ pick an answer and move on. Pick and answer and move on, so good luck.

This coming Friday, I was planning to attend the Kuala Lumpur Photography Festival 2011 in Mid Valley when a friend asked me to join a simple party for someone someone. I guess I'm not going to enjoy my weekend anywhere for this coming 2 weeks. Next Saturday and Sunday, I need to attend another student convention and blahblahblah, so no hometown backpacking girl. Hell. And then long awaited examination weeks where I'll do my best. My best. Past few days ago, I had this strange habit of sleeping. I went to slept at 10/11 PM and woke up around 3 AM. And for the past 3 nights ago, I haven't sleep at my own room. I was so confiscated with assignments and presentation that I decided to sleep around the mates house. That's what I told them. When the fact is that I actually want to hide away from the feeling of getting back at own room. It reminds me of unhappy things. I just want my home.

Well, I really really really really wish I'm kind of numb at the moment.

79. [FAN ACCOUNT] Korean Music Wave Malaysia 2011

2011-10-01T12:51:00.005+08:00

I'm writing this fan account as part of my unforgettable memory. Read it if you want :] A week already passed by, so 시가니 please bring me back to September 24th 2011.

PRIOR TO THE CONCERT

A bright morning where I was supposed to attend Sambutan Hari Raya at college. Yap, I skipped it like a boss (Y) As a first-timer for this kind of Kpop Music Festival where all the line-up performers (GDTopRi, FT Island, Park Jungmin, 4Minute, U-KISS, Teen Top) were more or less not an ultimate biases to me, I was keeping a faith to have a spectacular moment watching them alive. I did some last minutes survey about the fan-chant and decided to root for FT Island which I even chose to wear a yellow shirt that day, just for them (: At 11 AM, me and another 2 Kpop-mates, Ina and Faridah whom rooting for Big Bang and Teen Top respectively off to Stadium Merdeka via KTM. Three of us had a good times chit-chatting about how excited we are at the moment to meet 6 of the famous Kpop artist in one night.

Around 2.30 PM after some slacking time at KL Sentral, we managed to arrive around the venue. I was /totally/ blurred at the moment because it was my first visit at Stadium Merdeka, as reported on web, National Stadium is around the corner. I saw quite a number of yellow shirt fan-girl which holding a VIP light-stick, but the fact that I was there for FT Island makes it worth the time. Because I bought myself a yellow FT Island light-stick (ㅡㅡ|||) tehehe. It costs me RM15, way much cheaper than SMent SJ's light-stick, so I don't mind it all. At least a souvenir to be brag in front of friends HAHA.

The organizer didn't really showed us the way to the Gate 4 as we actually managed to find it ourselves. So, take a note, Galaxy. You should paste something something direction for a first timer like us to reach our specific location. Anyways, as soon as we passed through a group of fan-girls, we heard a loud scream chanting for Park Jungmin. OMFG, he's rehearsing inside the stadium! Lol, okay. We sat at the corner waiting for the gates to open while chatting with two Chinese girls beside me who were also supporting FT Island. FYI, FT Island and GDTop also did some not-so-quick rehearsals soon before the gates were opened for the audience. It was damn trolling in front of gates because everyone want the best spot to watch their favorite idols. First come, first serve basis. Ina managed to enter first, so we got the advantage of taking a nice spot. I mean okay-okay spot. HAHA. It was a football stadium so you can't expect it to be crown with cushion seated, air conditioner and etc. With the bright star as our shilling, how romantic is that?

THE CONCERT

Past 7.30 PM, they started the concert with opening act with a DJ beat-boxing but I have no idea who was that guy actually lol. He was good with Justin Bieber's Baby and some other songs. But my heart was cramping nervous as soon as I saw the KMW2011 logo was displayed on the main screen. KMW officially started when U-KISS Kevin (speaking in English) and Dongho (speaking in Mandarin) walked out from backstage and hosted the event together with MY fm radio deejay, Jeff Chin and South Korea Arirang host which I don't know his name.

First act of the night were FT Island. My heart was obviously not ready to accept the reality that I'm going to watch FTI in real life but then yes, they were in front of me. /ASJQHFUJCNDN/ It's been 4 years since the band have set foot in Malaysia, so the frontman, no other than Hongki greeted us "Long time no see" after some Korean mumbled. Cute ;3; His voice was super amazing, no cracks at all. He is literally a vocal powerhouse, just all kind of awesomeness. I screamed my lungs out with 5 of their songs, Hello Hello, Love Love Love, Bad Woman, Bing Bing Bing and I Hope to be mentioned. On top of that, Hongki did some fan-service by shaking his butt during Bing Bing Bing lmao. We were all shrieking XD Also, during the interview part, FTI got asked what food they enjoyed the most in Malaysia, and Hongki blurted out "Kimbap, ddokbukki!" Lmao, this boy really that's not even Malaysian HAHA. So Kevin was like "No, we mean in Malaysia." and FTI went "AHHHH, haven't tried anything yet." Poor bb ;~~~; 3 good looking guitarists ㅡLeader was freaking sexy I always adore him, Jaejin and his sparkling blonde and when maknae Seunghyun rapped during Love Love Love, for some weird reasons, I felt so blissful. Minhwan cannot moved around since he needs to drum but but but overall I spazzed the most during their performance! Someone should sends petition and asks for FTI to comeback to Malaysia again!!!

Next up was Teen Top, the young version of Big Bang TOP loljk. I amazingly enjoyed them second after FTI lol maybe because Faridah spazzing a lot at that moment and because I shook hand with Chunji the day before. They sang 5 songs which is No More Perfume On You (we screamed the most during "Noonaye momaenun neomu neomuna sexyhae - Noona, your body is so so sexy" lmfaotrolololol pervert noona), Brushing, Clap, Angel and Supa Love. I love Clap the most so I did a silly fan-cam only to hear the people around me clapping in-synchronize along the song bleeh. Chunji is officially my bias in Teen Top so he deserved a scream along the concert lol, and Neil looks a little moody. Some said that he's not feeling well, aww poor Neil. Kevin did some interview with them and I randomly hoped that he'll stand besides Chunji so that everyone can see their similarities lol but no, he didn't. Sobs. Overall, Teen Top whom wearing all white suit that night is freaking lovable dongsaeng :) Give them some love people, hope they'll coming again to town.

After Teen Top was the one and only girls group that night which is 4Minute! These was their second time spending time in Malaysia after the DiGi Kpop Live last year but it was my first meeting them. As a regular viewer of Immortal Song 2, I am proud to say that Jiyoon's voice is super best lol. They sang Mirror Mirror, Heart To Heart (Jungshin chingu!) I My Me Mine, Muzik and Hot Issue. Started of well with the infamous "We are 4Minute~" greeting to fans, I was actually complementing HyunA for her less sexiness that night when she did some /pervert dance/ with her sexy legs in front of audience lmao. Kfine. HAHA. And one to be noted at, every single people around me regardless the differences of light-stick they're holding on was like fan-chanting to 4Minute songs very well lol. They are famous here, node.

U-KISS was here 3 times and I just met them once. Anyways, I'm glad that I met them like finally. They performed next after 4Minute with 5 songs, Never-land, Bingeul Bingeul, Everyday, 0330 and Man Man Hani (Am I that easy?) lol. Well received considering the number of its visit here. All fans singing along with them and it is an honor for Malaysian KissMe as this is the first time Never-land was performed outside of Korea yay. And I was like chanting the loudest during "Money Love Fashion Fame", "And we stay forever young" and "Don't Deny Our R Squared Pi". I love the fact that Kiseop got more part in Never-land so I cheered the most for him HAHA. We were not that fond of AJ replacing Xander's rap part during Bingeul Bingeul but don't deny, AJ is hot olala lmao. Kiseop did a love shape at the end of the song. After the performance the boys jet off to airport leaving behind the concert due to the promoting new album and few more local shows scheduled at Korea :(

After U-KISS was Park Jungmin's turns to light up the night. At first I wasn't expecting much from this guy as I'm not a very-into-SS501 that I managed to online on Twitter for awhile lmao. BUT OMG LEGIT CRY HE IS FREAKING ADORABLE IN REAL LIFE. He was super friendly that we can tell from his face how much excited he was for coming back here in Malaysia after 4 years. And and he was introducing himself in Chinese that I want to squish his face :3 The funny part was when he wanted to read something off a paper but then realized the paper he dug out of his pocket was the wrong one and he was like "Shen me pan? Shen me pan?" Honestly, how much cuter a man get without even trying XD It was even cuter that audience actually giggling much on him when the emcees came in to talk to him and then he suddenly told us he found the exact paper and just started reading the stuff in Bahasa LOL "Apa khabar semua orang? Amat gembira berjumpa anda semua di Malaysia. Kita akan buat yang terbaik untuk anda semua." Lmfao how cute is that. I'm not very sure the title of his song that I did a research once I got back home, the sexiness overloaded song entitled "Let Go" worth to listen to. And also a ballad song "Missing You" HAHAY.

I am pretty sure that guy is a Victory

I'm not an avid fan of Big Bang solo album so when Seungri and GDTop entered the stage I was pretty blank girl to be honest. Amidst of thousand crazy fan-girls standing on chair for them, I was quietly did my fan-cam lmao and truth be truth, they're amazing performers like really amazing. To make everyone stand on their feet at a concert is just not an easy job but 3 of the Big Bang members did it. I was overwhelmed with the reaction of the whole stadium that I managed to come to a conclusion, Big Bang should really considering Malaysia as their next Big Show pit-stop. Seungri sang VVIP, What Can I Do and Strong Baby. He speaks with decent English and complimenting "Malaysia fans sangat bagus." Awesomeness. BAGUS is legit that night. Lol. While on the other hands, towards the end of the show GDTop were finally on stage. I see you TOP bradah. LMAO. I'm big fan of him and Daesung since Family Outing so hell yeah. They wore some funky techno-color jackets and performed /only/ 3 songs includes Knock Out, Oh Yeah and High High. The only song that I enjoyed the most was High High because I obviously remember the dance steps HAHA. They're without any doubt the most highlighted performers that night, I'm not a fan of them but I enjoyed the glam of the night :)

The not-so-GD-ness

It was the end of the show when the two emcees came on stage and I was like "Am I done? Is this the end?" Aww 3 hours were like in a split second. I still believe that the emcees were trolling around when Faridah asked me to move on to catch the late night mono-rel. Oh. I want more and more FT Island. Heh.

Taken during FTI's performances ♥

THIS AND THAT

1) Security wasn't really tight at the entrance. Easy peasy on hiding camera and people can even brought foods and drinks into the stadium. But along the concert, they kept on doing some random laser-check on audience. Bleeh.
2) I'm having a mere sore-throat not as bad as Super Show 3 though.
3) Aside from that, I've this major hang-over on Chunji and FT Island which is very weird. Lol.
4) GD's hair was growing super fast I guess. He was half bald (?) back then. And TOP didn't really appeared like a gangster tbh, it just his voice. HAHA.
5) I shoot less picture because of the distance barrier. Unlucky fangirl is unlucky.
6) Arrived college at 12.00 AM and continue spazzing.

Thanks for reading another piece of crap.

78. And I Shake Hand With TeenTop Chunji

2011-09-26T03:15:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the manner-less behavior and title lol. I just feel so high which is very weird. This is a pre-entry before the real fan account of Korean Music Wave Malaysia 2011 so I'll just crapping here for a while for another saving sweet memory account. Heheh. On the specific date given September 23rd 2011, I was carelessly spending my busy time at Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA) /again/ due to the extra excitement of welcoming FT Island to Malaysia. I was heading to the airport around 2 PM and as soon as I reached there, a few fan-girls waved FT Island Pentastick flag greeting me. It was more or less brought some kind of weird feeling, because I never thought that I'll be among the yellow ocean Primadonnas'. We were waiting at the same spot where I once waited for Super Junior arrival for Super Show 3 which lead to disappointment, so I was secretly wished in heart that I'll be extra lucky today. And yes I was lucky on that day.

Around 4.30 PM, as expected a MAS flight (MH 0067) from South Korea was safely arrived here in Malaysia, so a flood of Hangul people were walking in front of us. Cautious as it may seems, we tried hard to recognized if some of them look like Lee JaeJin, or maybe Choi Minhwan pftt lmao okay how lame I am. And no, they didn't appeared even when the clock already hit 5.00 PM. For some moment, I thought that maybe I wasn't that lucky enough to meet them face to face when I'd overheard someone phone-call telling that 4minutes just passing by at the VIP lane. Okay that's outrageous. Ran for life.

As fast as an Olympic athlete, I'd running almost 400 meters in 2 minutes (?) oh well, before reaching the situated venue. Its a damn with lots of fan-girl (was pointing self to be a little stupid waiting at wrong lane) and security. I was asking almost everyone about 4minutes lmao. Few minutes waited, and another chaos happened-- it was FT Island! The first figure appeared after the coordinator-noona and manager was Leader Jonghoon which happened to be the most highlighted among FT Island cluster. I was really damn near to him that I was stunned blankly before realized that I should chasing him for at least a photo. And yes at least a photo and a shout "Oppa jeongmal meoshisseoyo! (Oppa, you're so cool!)" to him lmao. I seriously believe that he listened to it but decided to appear blank. Lmfao delusional fan. At the end near to the white van provided for them, I realized that Seunghyun and Minhwan were standing behind us ASJKDNQFH. They did gave some fan-service so I was taking chance holding Minhwan hand. Puhahaha. Seunghyun on the other hand, did some High-5 with a lucky fan-boy, and he smiled a lot (not as much as Minhwan though) Jaejin was the last to see as he wore face-mask and a hat covering his blonde hair. Jaejin saranghanda, noona neomu neomu joh-ahada ♥ Wakaka.

Soon as the FT Island's van went into the unknown direction, the group of fan-girl including innocent me headed back into the VIP arrival hall. Yes, it was TeenTop. It was them for real, and I didn't even recognized who's the first appeared before everyone shouted "It's Chunji!!" Oh hellyeah. He was wearing blue sweater and kept on bowing everyone and taking gifts from fans. He even received one big flower doll which I guess contributed to my luck. Oh my, my highlighted event XD

At the corner of the airport, there was a girl running among the crowd with her camera. I was running like a lady clicking the shutter, hiding from security and manager's hand that kept on preventing me from taking Chunji's photo. Until at one time, I was a little pissed off with them that I decided to walk into the crowd and bravely offered my hand to Chunji. Hesitated because I was afraid with the consequences but "CHUNJI, HANDSHAKE PLEASE??" Full of hope yet he was only looking at me and the expression-less face gave me a meaning that he didn't understand my word at all. I was a little disappointed, yet a cool and long fingers-feeling hold my hand. OKAY CRAP I WAS EXAGGERATING TOO MUCH LMAO. I JUST SHOUTED "CHUNJI HANDSHAKE!" AND WHAT HE DID WAS SHAKING MY HAND. THAT'S IT. Yaaaaaaaaaay happy fangirl is happy. He was as handsome as UKISS Kevin. I was totally forgotten about the rest of other TeenTop which I was expected myself to at least seeing Neil. Nevertheless, I still went back to home as crazy as you can see now.

So I guess I'm just going to write a proper KMW Malaysia Fan-Account in a moment. Bye for now. Thanks for reading this piece of crap.

p/s: Chunji: Uhm, you can let go now. Me: Never.

77. We Lie The Loudest When We Lie To Ourself

2011-09-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

I should be happy for them, but to be honest, I feel sad. The day before, maybe since months ago I've been thinking the same old matter. And yesterday, I went to check their Facebook updates and status. Oh well, I feel sad to see them there, having fun, while I'm still here. Doing nothing. From their eyes, it seems that I'm one of those the lucky one, for being able to land myself another chance of study, even with the average examination pointer. Well I'd like to think that this chance of study makes me feel worst, albeit not entirely. It feels sad to see how I'm wasting the chance just because I've no idea with the entire process of getting a degree with it. I guess I just want to be with them, spending time together like before. The only things that makes a little relevant to be happy is to see me graduating one semester earlier than the supposed one. But by the time I'm graduating in the next year, it will be less crowded, less spazz-ing than a semester later and I'm not sure how that makes me feel right now. Oh yes, we lie the loudest when we lie to ourself. Who is this person I've become now? An actor.

On the brighter notes, I'm back from my random hiatus so expect me to spill out my thought more often than before. Along the one month random hiatus, I was preparing a back to basic's tool with some ink and a journal and effortlessly writing manually when I feel the needs on it. I experienced something that makes me think about the fact that we can actually dying without internet is probably just a hoax. I'm not sure how can I say this out loud but study has taken its tool on me along the month. It's a good side of internet-hiatus by the way. In the coming 2 days, I'll be attending Korean Music Wave 2011 at Stadium Merdeka. Eventually, I'm running away from the mess up builds from the unstoppable assignments to something more like me. Kpop (:

Do expect a long essay of fan account from me! ㅋ

76. And I'm Pretty Blank

2011-09-16T13:48:00.004+08:00

Life wasn't very nice few weeks back. But at least I still breath well, eat well and everything's well. Still in random hiatus. And hiatus is not great at all.

Perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you, perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you, and Allah knows the best while you are not.

Take good care!

75. Hiatus on Hari Raya

2011-08-28T13:04:00.003+08:00

My favorite hari raya song. In semi-hiatus till semester break ended :( Take care everyone.

74. 13 Days and Counting

2011-08-13T18:37:00.004+08:00

I really don't understand why this blog's head banner acts like a silly billy. Am I the only one who can't review my own head banner? I've changed the photo upload site for a few times and still, it disappearing after sometimes. Fufufufu. Screw you. Anyway hi I am here again. I managed to find the right time to express my hold off feeling for the current week. Another piece of crap so don't mind it if you're not going to read it anyway.

I felt like I have been away for the longest time ever. But I've been buried with so many weird sleeping hours trying to study and finish reports and assignments and also trying to stay more than 3 hours in the most unwelcoming library. In short I've been busy trying to finish this short semester nicely. And today I actually feel like I have so many things to say but I don't know how. Maybe I should start with my abroad Ramadhan story where I spent 3 days on row breaking fast outside of dorm with mates. Heheh. No fun actually taking the point that you had paid for a higher price of food and drink when actually you can stir it yourself. Never mind. Well well I miss the day when I can choose whatever kuih I want to eat during breaking fast at home :\ August 26th please comes fasterrr. I miss home already.

Talking about home reminds me of ibu. Last few days ago, Jeehan sent me a text message sounds like this. "Angah, don't asks anything relates with driving test etc in front of ibu, or else you'll find her moody like real moody." Man, I never encountered something like this. Found out that ibu is very cute tehehe. No, I mean maybe she's kind of disappointed with herself regarding the JPJ test like giving up on getting a licence (?) Aw, ibu..... she shouldn't worry much about this. Who cares if she can't drive a car and obviously she can. The only thing is she's lack of confidence but who care, my mum is super woman. She can't drive but she cooks the best! She is super confidence on her cook XDDDD HAHA. Okay, I should send her some good test messages. On the other notes of JPJ, I haven't finish my driving lesson classes fiuuuu~ my schedule is almost like a minister's, forever pack so don't blame me.

Aside from busying myself trolling around the campus area, I amazingly found a skeptical time to watch 49 Days. Wahwah HAHAH, obviously busy doesn't always effective. 3 episodes up-to-date, and all I can say, it quite a promising drama to watch. I guess because dealing with death, morbid much (?) and grim is something that we don't fully understand and rarely talk about in our real life. Anyway gives me time, I need 20-30 days to finish one drama lol. Just because. So don't asks. Heheh. Oh one thing about the drama, all actors look so good, no doubt. I ended up counting on which guys should Jihyun and Yikyung ended up with.

With a mind like a pure student, I am going to finish my programming assignment with a due date August 19th this weekend. Will download a full episode of Yonghwa seobang's Heartstring. Listen to my bgm, it's Park Shinhye's^^ But who care with my plan. Enjoying every moment and I decided to be more cheerful. And less moody. Heh.

Just because life is short :-) and time is limit and my 13 days' countdown begin.

73. Cool's Mornight

2011-08-11T01:49:00.004+08:00

This should be among one of those really urgent entry. I am too busy few days back for which study is the main cause. And for a quick update while typing for English thesis, I am very sorry for the lack of vocabulary and crap grammar. Here is the short update about what's happening passed few days ago. Will elaborate it later on the next next entry. Well my study is kind of up and down simultaneously. I've scored the highest in presentation (tehehe) but another subject kills the celebratory mood. Ibu is in moody state due to this driving class stuff and it makes me worry about her. Ibu, don't be like this. Please cheer up okay ㅠ______ㅠ 10 days passed the first Ramadhan and everything is turns out pretty well. Oh! I've missed reading few juzuk of Holy Quran but will find time to recover it. Ramadhan seems to be very lighting fast this year D:

And currently busy with my Kpopshop for which I work it out with another Kpop-mate, we gained our first customer with a total of purchase = RM 5.00 lol. At least my Kpop collections get me some money for the next next Kpop event. Have you reviewing Super Junior's 5 Jib Mr. Simple? Awesomeness! Not trying to be bias, but the album really worth everyone's money yay. My choice would be Opera, Memories, Sunflower and Be My Girl. HAHA. I thought of listing all songs here. But Good Friend's lyrics teared my heart the most. It's beautiful despite the light and catchy melody. And Kyuhyun's bb voice is better & better. Hyukjae's ilu ♥ lol.

This is not a light updates as it may seems =__________= lmao. Anyway, have a good day for anyone's reading this. Might drop here again this Saturday. Wish me luck for coming tests and never ending presentations. Hwaiting!

72. One of My Ramadhan

2011-08-01T16:42:00.001+08:00

Home is where I can look and feel ugly and enjoy it.

Absolutely agree. And making it more senses, another Ramadhan arrives when I'm at home, finally. Times seems to move faster and faster. Is it a crime to love it? First, I was dying to finish my high-school and start college and then, I'm dying to finish college and start working. Then I'm dying to marry, have children and for them to grow old enough, so I could go back to work. Then I'm dying to retire. And suddenly, I realized that I forgot how to live a life! ---so, appreciate your current situation and enjoy the moment. But one for sure, I'm very looking forward to start this year Holy Month of Ramadhan. Yes, remorseful for the past and I need to grab this one and only opportunity when the gates of Jannah are open throughout the month. Its the time to focus on self-reformation, spiritual cleansing and enlightenment. The season for sharing and giving. This is the month where all the good deeds will be rewarded multiply times and completely erased our sins and reborn as a new person.

This Holy Month of Ramadhan always brings a mixed feeling to me. It marks another year of maturity which I guess very personal for me as a girl. When I looked back at the memories of celebrating this holy month, different images flash through my mind. I remember performing this duties of Fardu Ain during school days, how we managed to bear ourselves from seeing those Chinese classmates drinking mineral water like no one care. Yes, funny as it may seems, but Jejak Rasul is the most famous travel-blog documentary show on Ramadhan. Hahay. Having a discipline dad, we don't have a choice to skip sahur but to finish the whole dishes and stuff while still in dizziness from sleep. End of Ramadhan is one of the best night to celebrated as a child but not as a 20 years old fahamokha because she's growing up where the thought of not meeting the next coming holy month comes to mind.

On a random note, this is my second year fasting as an independent daughter studying abroad from Johor. And I absolutely have no idea on how I'd survived the last Ramadhan alone, without family I mean. Some toufu-fa from nearest bazaar maybe lighten the situation. Heh. Ramadhan Kareem to all Muslim worldwide. May this coming Ramadhan Mubarak will gives us a chance to observe the sincerity of Islam with attitude, truth and kindness :-)

Crap pictures taken on my way back hometown sitting inside a very old-school bus with a manual window. Precious because haven't got any chance to enjoy this ride since 2008.

71. And Rejoice

2011-07-29T13:47:00.004+08:00

"Di atas bumi ini ku berpijak ada jiwa yang tenang di hariku

Tak pernah ada duka yang terlintas, ku bahagia

Ingin ku lukis semua hidup ini dengan cinta dan cita yang terindah

Masa muda yang tak pernah kan mendung ku bahagia

Dalam hidup ini, harungi semua cerita indahku

Saat-saat remaja yang terindah tak bisa terulang

Ku ingin nikmati segala jalan yang ada di hadapku,

Kan ku tanamkan cinta tuk kasihku agar ku bahagia."

Ku Bahagia

I went through my playlist on a shuffle mode yesterday and ended up listening to this song for about 20 times in a row. Melly Goeslaw's Ku Bahagia. One of the original soundtrack of Ada Apa Dengan Cinta, an Indonesian film that was famous around 2001-2002. It makes me think if life is as simple as the lyrics, to enjoy everything as it seems without being hurt physically and emotionally. No, definitely its not. Life is not at the point that you can laugh everyday with all happy story being told on and on. When you rise, fall, learn something, rise again, appreciate things, so on and so forth, that's when you'll learn the meaning of life. There is no such thing as happy ending, as the happiness is gain with every little hard work of every people involved in life. And hard work is all about applying your ability to the limit and non-stop whether you're dying inside and outside. Who cares? Nobody.

My kiasu-ness is overloaded. I know.

Anyway, these complicated things didn't kill my mood to enjoy the song as well as my dull problematic life to the maximum. At least, in my dream. I'm still eat well, which I praise to Allah, as one of the obvious happiness in the world. Okay crap. I didn't travel/walking/window shopping anywhere last weekend, which I classified as the busiest week in my July. There were endless presentations everyday which I guess successful in making me look very numb in front of audience. Yesterday night, thanks to Twitter Stadium, I managed to catch a few updates on football match of Malaysia-Singapore. We might lost on the final score but I know deep inside in every heart of Malaysian, we are the winner. See, sportsmanship do reunite races, religions, politics and every little boundaries here and there. This is why sport is very important to nurture the younger generation as one of crapcrapcrapcrapcrap/

:)

Sometimes things happens not as what we've planned and expected. Believe in Allah and do the best for Him. Rejoice, as Allah will gives the best for each one of us. Maybe this one could help us to be appreciative & grateful with what life has taught us.

PERKIM [click here]

p/s 1: When you're down in spirit, what's comfort you the most? For me, it's usually a mixture of writing, encouraging thought and praying :)

p/s 2: Welcome Ramadhan in 2 days~^^

70. Emotional Dissonance

2011-07-26T14:34:00.002+08:00

If you're concerning on my recent entries, it were obviously involved something that we called as emotion. Emo-entries. Apparently just heading back from Organizational Behavior lecture which turns out quite interesting today, I am urged to write something relates with the topic. I ain't a free student but here I am again, writing a piece of crap for a note and a reminder. Emotions generally means as an intense feelings directed at someone or something. On the other hands, moods are kind of feelings that tends to be less intense than emotions and usually are lack a contextual stimulus. When a complex emotions and mind meet up, you'll produce a complex human thinking. Interesting isn't it?

2 days residing at new room, I show no different. At least, physically when I'm dying emotionally. I paid a high price for an area of privacy. Everyone are very nice, too nice I mean. Its me who act like a dumb-ass. I'd a busy life by avoiding them at room, preventing them seeing my online activities. With them around, I've decided to type my blog entry at library and yes here I am. Awkwardly hiding myself at the corner of the place. Maybe I should give them more time. Yes, time do heal everything.

As much as I realize, my study is going no where when I've started to hate on everything with calculation. I'm not even interested of making profit and whatever credits income and stuff, I'm just tired with all these things. All I want to do is being what I want to be, which I myself had a complex mind to figure it out. I should try to make an appointment with counselling group. Anyway, it won't works well on me. How about doing a charity works? Seeing and comparing lifeless and my lucky life, to appreciate it well. Will put it into consideration.

I went to watch Harry Potter last Sunday like finally. Finally. An hour and 45 minutes sobbing non-stop, cried like a baby. I'd crying every time I saw Snape. I thought that I'm going to have a better emotion control taking the point that I've read and know the ending of the story but admit it I cried the most when Snape cried upon Lily's death. On top of that, I saw Lupin and Black. My favorites aside from Snape and yes I'm loving their friendship. See, me no crazy over Potter or Malfoy. Exception to Oliver Wood heehee. I pity the guy who sat beside me on the cinema, he must thinks I am such a crazy bug who cry over a shit. Whatever. Is this activity considered as discover the world?

I received this award from AYAKANE :) At least there's something to smile about. HAHA. And laugh about.

THE RULES: Worship at the feet (?) or makeup vanity of the person who nominated you and link back to her/his in your post. Share 7 facts about yourself. Pass the award to 15 other bloggers. Contact your nominees and let them know you tagged them.

7 facts about me (a secret maybe?)

a) I considered myself as different girl. If every girl thinks the same, world would be the most interesting place to be. We are not typical girl.

b) I believe Yesung saw my LOVE banner during SS3. Why is this a fact anyway? Lol

c) I broke college's rules more than a regular rule-breaker. Only then, people hasn't suspected on me yet.

d) Bella Swan's softball scene with the Cullan's family of vampire affected me the most just because Supermassive Blackhole is my favorite playlist when I'm doing weird things.

e) Photography for fun ♥ But I rarely took people's picture. So mind you.

f) I've collected lots of Korean drama soft-copy but I only watch like one out of 6 of them? Secret Garden was the last one.

g) I'm home-addict. Everyone who pass across this blog should know this fact very well. Going back this Saturday! Yay.

Tagged bloggers :) (Yes, 15 is too much lol)

a) Aisya Tisya

b) Aizamia BooJaejoong

c) Niqah

d) Yuiayumisakurai

e) Nas

f) Nurul Husna Kim

g) Syikin Hamedi

69. Takes Off The Mask

2011-07-20T21:19:00.006+08:00

A nice friend that I just met a few months ago was asking me, "Tell me, are you really not dating anybody at this moment for real?" -and gives me an inexpressible complaining face. What's the problem with that. Do I look like someone's in love? Maybe she misunderstood my 24/7 tweeting activity as part of texting the love one. No, I'm single yet unavailable. No specific reason for the unavailability. For the mean time, I found out that dating guy is time and money consuming precisely when I'm lacking of both things for myself. In case you're wondering, I never dated any guy before taking the point that Cho Kyuhyun is just a virtual boyfriend heheh. I may be in my 20's but a total naive girl when it comes to love. Naive is too much I guess, inexperience girl heck. I don't see any reason or need at the moment. Choosy as it may seems, I'm waiting for the right guy out there to purpose me with a 181cm Kyuhyun yadayadayada. I'm not dating anyone and I believe Kyu's not dating that Kara's maknae. Kthxbye.

It was like an ordinary day here in college but I've tons of butterfly inside my stomach. HyukSu tweeted each other last night! What a day. SM Y U NO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THIS. Okay I'm trolling. Finally a miracle happened in front of me. Oh yeah and finally I believe in best friend that last forever :) Get back DB5K and 15uper Junior together please. In need to finish numbers of assignment that starting to climb up my schedule. Quite catch up with my study and stuff to this point, I feel some good reflect on better time management. Hope it'll be consistently paid off. On the lighter note, Ramadhan getting nearer, 12 days or less. I hope this year Ramadhan will be much better than last year. I desperately want to have my private time with family on the 1st Ramadhan, please! HAHAY. Should continue with school tasks, till then. Take care.

p/s: Lin YouJia's Mystery Guest is so sweet ♥

68. One Week Of My July.

2011-07-17T17:43:00.002+08:00

Plenty things to jot down but lack of quality time to spend on writing. Hi, I'm back after 11 days of hiatus. My apologies for neglecting this blog. One stressful week has just passed by which I've decided to keep it safe on my secret account. One little thing behind all these, I learned that bad times comes with a few choices. We can use them to make us bitter or use them to make us better, or at least a bit better. And the feeling when you're stuck among the under-estimate students group is just indescribable. They're awesome with fighting spirit just like us. But in their case, the lucky potion just don't works well with them.

Speaking about lucky potion, Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2 just released out on local cinema. Nah, frank to say I can't feel the hype. People are talking about it non-stop and I feel like asking them if they're really knowing Harry Potter the best. Stop bragging to me that you've watch the latest installment if you don't even read the books. Yeah at least I read them. And at least, Potter and co had accompany my childhood memories for the past 10 years. At least I'd google Harry Potter Wiki most of the time when I'm free from Kpop fangirling. At least I don't brag that I understand the plot when actually I really understand it. At least I don't watch Draco Malfoy on film just because Tom Felton is hot. At least my favorite professor is Lupin and not the infamous Dumbledore. Yes, pissed off and jealous because I haven't watch HP & Deathly Hallows. Shallow as it may seems, so cut the crap. I'll miss you like I miss DB5K and Super Junior13. Best of luck Potter, Weasley and Granger.

On the "not so lighter note", the whole resident of Block G was been asked to evacuate to new dorm nearby the college because of some weirdo reasons. Tell you what, I was sleeping, tweeting, sleeping, eating, tweeting in this place like from the very beginning of my student's life, even from the Intensive English Camp and I feel so depressed to leave this place. Like real depression. I cried on my pray hoping that this is just another nightmare (I've encountered quite a number few days back). My favorite corner out of this room is the veranda as I had spend most of my time lingering alone here, counting the air-plane that passing through the sky, peeping the children who cycling bicycle around the housing area in front. Too many good memories. Yes, I'll be with new roommates very soon. I admit that the current roommates are the best. At least they understand me well. What a bad bad trip isn't it. Tired of ranting.

Yesterday was a girl's day out for me and 3 of my friends. This was not a joking trip please take a note, this is a therapy session trip to the town lol. We went to KL Sentral for a short trip and continue fangirling at Kpop Shop, My Star Collections at Times Square. Few hours later, we went to Low Yat Plaza, checking out few IT gadgets. I desperately want a new MP4 because the old one had broken earphone, but at the end of the day, I bought nothing. Next stop was Sungei Wang Plaza, the one I bought my SS3 tickets HAHAHA, I found a nice sneakers. Intended to buy the thing, but same as before, I ended up with empty handed. Lack of buying desirableness /sigh. And a little bit regretting :| KTM was damn packed at night trip. We were like don't-care-people-judgement and sitting at the corner. A pair of numb leg.

p/s1: The best title for the picture, Bersimpuh di Lantai KTM.

p/s2: You never know where life will take you. Just believe in your dream. And oh, just buy the sneakers if you like them! D:

p/s3: I'm missing hometown as always. Weekdays, please be nice.

p/s4: My Kpop presentation is okay. Heart is proud.

67. Confronting Pressure

2011-07-06T20:24:00.001+08:00

I should never write anything about feeling great, praising and good things about this college. Apparently all my effort of displaying the smile figure seems to be broken into pieces in just one day. And one night.

I'm back to my depression world due to this study matter. And no one couldn't care more about me. Because all of them know nothing. With them knowing nothing about me, I have a big doubt if I ever had a trusted friend for whom I could tell her about my weaknesses. My weaknesses, I really feel uncertain if ever someone notice about this because all of them are looking at me in a real perfection. Flawless FHMK. Burdensome. Should go back and study if smart people ever facing such melancholy feeling whenever they sit for examination. Public expectation. Annoying. My life is not your life. Stop expecting me to score high in every test. Please don't screw me down when I fail or need to re-sit the paper. I'm not born to be a genius, and I don't want to as I myself is definitely imperfect. So give me a favor, stop expecting. I'm done with you.

On the heavier note, I'm trying hard to avoid people from touching my stuff. I mean, expecting people to understand you but at the same time, shrug off everyone from you? Come on, but that's me. People showing their sympathy and empathy over the matter is just no me. I couldn't understand myself more.

Weaknesses discovered and no one in reality life ever notice it. I have zero trusted friend. Reality is so cruel, bet to agree with AYAKANE.

I feel like in a great need to get rid of all this worry-ness inside just like I'm dumping a plastics full of rubbish into the dustbin. Whether I want it or not, I must strengthen myself to survive these difficult time as a student and to climb the summit. Summit of Everest Mountain. Kind of.

Confronting pressure 101:

1) Sleep.

2) If you're still in pressure, pack the bag, spend RM 15.30 on ticket and go back home.

3) If there is more pressure? Sleep at your room.

4) Still there? Sleep at your mum room.

5) You can't sleep anymore? Wake up and face the pressure like a real man.

Thank you.

RT @IslamicThinking: Life will teach you lessons. It is up to you to learn them. #Islam

p/s: Stoic is a person who can endure pain or hardship without showing their feeling or complaining || crap.

MIND = BLOWN

66. New Leaf New Life

2011-07-05T12:18:00.002+08:00

Yap I had kind of good start today on my new semester. Surprisingly enjoying my class very well with new lecturer etc and people are pretty friendly considering today is the first day of semester. HAHA very well then, let see if this joy will be till the end. I'd prepare few new resolutions (meant to be broken but not all) and listed it in front of room-mates hoping that they'll scold me if ever I broke the rules. Thinking of the do and don't that could be done in this semester for making it worthwhile. Never online during the day (but I'm doing now), ironing all weeks attire on Sunday and finishing the expected assignment on time, shame to say I rarely done this 3 things well last semester. So I'll try for the current time :| hwaiting. And they're laughing at me. Oh yeah crap.

Yesterday we started to kick off with Computer subject and blimey, our lecturer is a pregnant mum. Expect her to rush in teaching before due date of the baby *clapclap* I'm not sure but I'll be prepare with this possibility. And continued with Organizational Behavior with Miss Aira who loves to listen to Japanese songs. Kpop? Fishy la you. I'd this feeling when she entered the class, mysterious. Professor Sybill Trelawney, she seems to be full with extra divination uh exaggerates lol. We met Madam Sonaz from Iran, her Malay pronunciation is laughable, really. But she's energetic :) And I can feel the energy. At the same time, we were kicking Monday subjects to other days like a boss because we want a clean sheet of the day so that we can go back hometown every weekend and Monday too HAHAHA. My course-mates are brilliant XDDD Eventually my Wednesday, Thursday and Friday gonna be pack like real pack. I've 2 paper of calculations and the rest is pretty much a theory basis. Kind of relief, I'm quite good in theory rather than practical fufufufu.

Meantime, I'm listing the new books for the new subjects that I take this semester and one for sure, it cost a lot. I'm in need to manage my money well this time. And I did some research about places to visit this semester. I'd google about Port Dickson, apparently thinking of early vacation with room-mates, but they're a group of lazy bugs. I'd read about movie making on one photography blog and kind of having this why-don't-I-try-it-today feeling, so I ended up recording everything around me. Man, not cool. I don't know what to do with this piece of crap video. HAHAH.

And at the end of the day, I'm missing home. It makes me thinking if I'm actually taking things for granted for the time on holiday. Only learn how to appreciate it after we lose it. Perhaps all the time won't ever be enough for us even if we securely take the things seriously second by minutes by hours and so on. Always. Human tend to feel unsatisfied with all the given things. Years after all the experience over experience, I'm still not sure if I actually learn to appreciate people or things around me xoxo. Better self-conscious, that's all I need.

Today is the first day of the rest of your busy life.

Will try to appreciate the first day *insert smile*

65. Feeling Sentimental

2011-07-01T13:43:00.005+08:00

It's been an on off weather lately. Dark cloud and cool breeze set the mood for some thinking. Hot summer is--- haih. What an exaggerated introduction. Anyway, few days left at home and I'm setting my priorities for the next semester. There are few things running on my head now. I am kind of lousy student.

Planning to fast everyday at college to save money for camera as well as practicing this coming fasting month. I'm eyeing a new DSLR tehehe. Kill two birds with one stone, to reduce weight. Hahay.
Will try to finish reciting Al-Quran within Ramadhan :)
Back to hometown every two weeks. A weekend at college will be spend on travelling around. I hope there is no weekend classes. Hwaiting.
Will try to give extra focus on study. InsyaALLAH.

As I was saying on the last entry, I just finished my 2 out of 9 compulsory hours for driving practical class. Hell 2 hours. The driving instructor keeps on searching for my false, I guess he got some unfinished grunge against my sister (he taught her too last year) and throw it on me. I mean this was my second classes with him and he already took me to drive on road, like real road with traffic light. big trailer and stuff. Omaigad. Amateur driver with L license, yes its me. Every time I went abroad with speed, he'll be like "You're not going to do some speed challenge with the car beside, don't you?" Okay thought that was my problem of pushing the speed pedal. And soon when I was in a safe mode which kind of slow for the professional driver like him, he turned to be like "What are you waiting for, just press the speed pedal!" Pffffft ssshut up you, its me who drive this borrowing car and you are just one ungrateful fortunate passenger which I can easily dump at the corner of the road. Anyway it just my inner thought, I have no guts to tell him this thing lol. Please be strong :'( I'd complain this to dad, somehow he shows no reaction /pfft. Maybe I'll consider the idea of using earphone while driving. Okay ranting mode is off. HAHA.

Moving on to the lighter note, this week was full with family bonding activities which is awesome on my view. I went out with mum to the mall, accompanied her to the spectacles shop and we went back home via tingtong bus. The last time we both took bus together when I was 12 and that's it. So I'm a happy daughter n_____n And yesterday, we went to Carrefour with dad to survey the new bookshelf where I ended up looked like a stone standing aimlessly. It was annoyingly took time but as long as mum and dad were happy, I'll be fine with it. Its weird to write something like this, about how's life goes on with details. In any type of ways, I'm just a happy daughter trying to immortalize herself for her parent. Will miss this later ;~;

This is the best to explain the week.

p/s: I haven't pack anything and helplessly don't want to go back college.

64. My Precious Precious

2011-06-27T18:22:00.005+08:00

I have quite a number of things to jot down here. But as far as you and I can forecast, lots of it are merely an easy peasy stuff that will wasting your reading time. Anyway, things had been pretty fine these days. Let me elaborate it. LOL crappy explanation.

I'm kind of moving on with the result stuff. Whatever it is, I'm going to accept it with my all. That's what I reap after all the things I'd sow. Naah the result is not that bad, it just some inner feeling needs to be thrown off. Few days left for me at home, so I'm enjoying the time as much as I can be. Short semester totally freak me out. Everyone else will having their break till early September while I'm sacrificing time for a year ahead to finish degree. Make it convenient for me ya Allah. Seriously this girl can't wait to graduate from school. Puhaha.

Yesterday evening mum and sister togetherness in mission, succeed in making an early version of kuih raya which I tasted it with dad. The taste was kind of awful, too crunchy and the colorful smarties candy was really hard to chew despite the nice floral shape. Urgh. Honest food review from me HAHA. On the other hand, dad was adorably chewing the biscuits with unexplained-able "Hum, hurm." omnomnom noise. Lmao. Can't stop laughing.

I found this image on Tumblr that catch my attention. It's travelling poster yaaay *clapclap* "Traveller is a person who is travelling or who often travels. As a career, they often record the travel which make them also be a journalist or photographer, etc etc etc." Don't tell me if I'm not qualified with this job. HAHA. I'm going for my driving class tomorrow. Wish me back home in one piece D: loljk. Happy Rejab 1432.

p/s1: I can't wait for Ramadhan, will change the BGM songs and stuff :)

p/s2: Expect some emotional changes in the coming entry. Back to college duhh.

63. Panic In The Room

2011-06-23T16:40:00.002+08:00

Second post on June 23rd. Previous post was kind of chill like nothing extreme gonna happen in the current time, serene and relaxed blablabla. You know at first I thought that I'm able to be as calm as possible, I thought I'm able to keep that cheerful smile. Eventually, I failed. I'd lie if I'm so well prepared for the bad result. I'd lie if I said I don't want the 3.5 and above pointer. Well, it's a normal feeling for a normal student but apparently due to a noob incident happened last semester, I was like having this extra kiasu nerdy feeling. Actually I'm trying real hard to keep myself at a really low profile of the results or even at the class. I'm avoiding Facebook (Programming Class is being smart as they actually create a group thingy) and basically appeared offline to stay clear of any question from course-mates. I'm trying to look like a lazy goofy girl and I guess it's worked when nobody mind over my business. Only before lecturer mentioned the name list of certain and certain. I play hard you know, played hard and study less hard. Pfft.

Looking at the time now, I bet student who scored well will be cheering on my FB timeline. They deserved that by the way. Even though, people who scored well and keep it for themselves gain my respect HAHA xoxo

I know everyone out there is like me, they are as worried, as scared, as negative thinking, as pessimist like me. We are a group of kiasu people. Regret when everything falls in front of us. But I guess I'm smart enough to handle this kind of emotional matter. I'd big enough to check for my result tomorrow. Or maybe the next of tomorrow. Or tomorrow tomorrow. Tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow. ~~Sigh.~~ Hwaiting.

PANIC OF EXAM RESULT

(kind of)

62. Arch From The Heart

2011-06-23T00:09:00.004+08:00

I was reading and catching up with blogs I had neglected in the past few days ago due to some crappy reasons when I realized that I should change my blog font. Heh no particular reason though, I just need a brand new feeling. No, I'm not that busy with driving classes in fact I haven't officially started it yet. Reading some blogs about the experience of sitting for the first time on the driver sit is killing the passion. To be honest I'm pretty skeptical with the driving instructor rather than anything else. Imagine sitting for an hour inside car with stranger on your left side. I can't. Will think a best reason to provide if any weirdo questions being ask. Help me. Help me sort this problem out. Duh, exaggerates much lmao.

Anyway, I had a phone call with course-mate about our future accommodation at college for coming new semester this morning. And the conversation lead to the final result things. Wey, I'm totally out of the town, so don't ask me. I hesitated to admit that I never do good in this semester. Yet I am. I was whining and complaining a lot about lectures and tutorials, about these and about that and yada yada, I don't think my pointer will be good this time. Derp face.

On the lighter note, David Archuleta is coming to town this July 26th. HAHAHA this is so out of topic but I used to be his ArchAngel and I guess part of me is still having the same gene. Basically after plus and minus, I actually owned his self-titled album David Archuleta 2008 released. No offence but I think he is way much better than Justin Bieber. Boy next door kind-of-personality is always relevant to typical Asian girl like me lol. Crap. I want to see him! Any kind soul want to give me extra pocket money? Nah, nobody nobody will give you.

Yesterday, MTV Asia released the list of performers for the next MTV World Stage at KL this July. No TVXQ HoMin like Malaysian Cassiopeia spazzing about it before. Pity us. Anyway its Beast, so I decided to give my free pair of passes (which I accidentally won 2 days before kind soul MTV released their thingy) to my B2TY-mate. No regret. I want a proper seat for my favorite. Let's the B2TY enjoys their Beast and vice versa. Easy peasy me. ~~Sigh~~. Plus I don't think mum will allows me attend that event and I shouldn't be there anyway. AH. Today is the 22nd birthday anniversary of Leader Jung Yonghwa of CNBLUE aww HAHA. And next week is Seohyun's 20th anniversary yay. I'm kinda like them you know. Too obvious. Lmao.

Seems that I'm enjoying my semester break. Till then :-)

ps: I'm changing the BGM song every blog post. Amaze? *clapclap*

61. To The Moon And Back

2011-06-20T15:04:00.004+08:00

Just in case you didn't know, one of my closest neighbor which I called Tok Aji just passed away. Due to an interior health disease and old age sickness at the age of 78 years old. Well, we did expect this thing to come anyway but it happened to be on the day after Father's Day (too soon?) It's kinda personal to mention here but to made everything mess up, he passed away alone.. at home early in the morning. Without all his children, proud son and daughter. I really can't. Dad was like "This shouldn't be happened for someone old to face Sakaratul Maut alone, with no one whisper Syahada at his ear. And no one reside Yassin beside him all the time."

So these thing brought me here writing about life relationship as a daughter to one and only dad, Mohd. Khalim bin Abu Amin.

I did write a few things about my dad in this blog before right? How proud I am to be his daughter and yes I am. Everything about him is amazing. This is the man that bought me a Doraemon's doll after whining so much when I was 4, just because I saw my cousin's own one. The man that took me and sister fishing every weekend at Teluk Chempedak, Kuantan even though I don't giving a care on it. The one that taught 4 of us how to remember Mathematics' table strictly when the fact that we secretly wrote it down on the study's board. The one that picked me up at primary school with his motorcycle and classmates said he's rock HAHA. The one I go when mum says NO. The one that understand his child better than mum. We just "Locomotor Mortis!!" out loud and he looked at us weird and he passed by and sees Harry Potter's trailer on the pc and was like "Ohhh okay." HAHA. Though he called Potter's film as a ghost movie. Of course its not :\ The one that shaped and formed me into the person I am today.

I don't think I've ever heard the phrase "You can't do it," come out of his mouth. He has always behind me 100% when everyone else said no. The phrase where I went through at high school was pretty much the prove but I disappoint him. Lots of time, I knew it and I'm so sorry. I never saw him crying to be honest, except on the day PakLong Din passed away. As the last child of the family, his departure grabbed dad's spirit, and I saw him shed tears. Ayah, don't cry. It kills me. I don't know if he is going to cry on my life-changing event, such as graduation or wedding. But I will cry with him, promise.

We never talk openly about feeling and all. Yes, all dad out there are stiff and awkward. But he once told us that if ever Allah gives a chance, he wants mum to depart first and let him to be the one who'll be alone. How complicated is that? I really can't. I can't. Stay healthy both of you. Remember the first gift we gave him on his birthday? Its the car perfume lmao. And soon after all these, it will be a real car hahah promise. I will, everything for you.

So ayah, when you eventually across this blog post, I don't know but I hope you read this. I love you to the moon and back, a million times over, bestfriend & nae beonho han namja.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO AMAZING FATHER OUT THERE :-)

p/s: Don't takes thing for granted, be appreciative.

The 10 & Million Things

2011-06-20T01:17:00.017+08:00

If you really understand yourself, you'll understand others well. :-)

I really treasure myself well. I may hate myself at some point, but overall I'm loving myself. I am who I am.
Music influences including TVXQ, Super Junior, Kdrama OST, Jay Chou, CNBLUE, Jason Mraz, David Archuleta, sometimes Taylor Swift, MUSE, Indie, M.Nasir and Nasyeed :D Randomness.
I really dislike/hate show off GUY. Once I thought if I ever meet a kind of brag guy like Kyuhyun in real world, I'll kill him with my word.
I'm one of fashion victims HAHA. Influence by Kpop. Usually wear black cardigan and black hijab.
I like the fact that I'm left handed. It's one in a 10. HAHA.
I am the girl who thinks Jay Chou is good looking than Wang Leehom.
Awkward with noisy crowd. Talkative with noob crowd.
You'll find the real me on Twitter, not on Facebook.
I dislike people who are biases. Like really biases. Example: Giving notes to favorite student D: Please butthurt.
I like SNSD as a girl group. I'm neither a Sone nor Stand.
I hate fan-war or simply fan that criticize other idol because they sound stupid. When I say idol, it covered the Kpop and Mpop. Get my point.
I mostly love my fandoms but at some point, I can hate them.
Proud Malaysian. I may loving Kpop and stuff, but Malaysia is Malaysia. Tanah tumpahnya darahku.
Usually alone in class. Pity isn't it. Even if there's people beside me, I feel empty.
I bring camera, book, water bottle and sometimes laptop inside bag (that's explain why my bag is always pack and big). And that's explain why I like Seohyun (epi1 WGM YongSeo Couple) AHAHA
I really can't express my feeling in a proper way. Haih. Mad with poker face outside.
I miss my highschool-mates, Moko family, Miss Anda and English Camp.
Loyal, yes I am but easily get bored.
"Never pass up a chance to keep your mouth shut. There is wisdom in silence." Wisdom in silence. I believe this.
I'm not an angel, I've the right to be evil sometimes.
I always wish that life has a background music. Too much?
I spend most of my money on something weird. Not food, not fashion, not Kpop. It just disappearing itself.
I read Harry Potter and the book influenced me much.
I think travelling alone is more pleasant compare to in a group. You tend to appreciate more everything around you. How I wish Malaysia is always safe for a self-traveler.
Green lover. Because I think without green, earth is a noob brown ball.
I am that girl who rarely spend her money on latest gadgets. My "I-PHONE" is Nokia 2330. HAHA
I'd promise to my teacher to visit her at Indonesia before 25y/o omonaa D:
I am the girl who has no thing on luxury product. But IDK for the next few years when living in Malaysia is in need of money, I may be a little materialistic.
I am the type of unpredictable predictable.
Sometimes I really want to try high heels, but turns out that I like sneakers more.
I believe in "till death do us apart." Old couple proves it anyway.
I am the type of girl who want to carry her DSLR everywhere but afraid of public's staring. Show off?
I am better in person rather than on social network. #foreveroffline
I am better in person rather than on photo. Admit it la, I'm not model pun. HAHA.
I listen to Hijjaz's "Ramadhan Bulan Berkat" randomly because it makes me feel conscious of myself.
I love Palm Date rather than Raisins.
I love YongSeo couple. They're like couple made from heaven aww lol.
Cat and kitten lover XDDDD
Malay guys look forever better with baju Melayu, samping and perfect songkok.
Personality test born on 16th: You own the attraction to anyone. You are realistic, confident, happy and genius in the field of education, music, art and singing. You have a hot temper problem. However, you do a lot of sacrifices to the family, you put family in a very lofty place and sometimes ignore the happiness of yourself. You were born to contribute to this world || um hot temper my foot.
Personality test: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted or talented but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if trust is ever broken.
Personality test December born: This straight up means you are the most good looking, loyal and generous, patriotic and competitive in everything. Active in games and interaction. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easy influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of idea. Sensitive and active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong will and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attract others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Understanding. Sickness usually at ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Having many child. Hardworking and high spirited. || active in games? funneh.
Against gay/lesbian. Obviously I'm against YunJae and EunHae fanatic who believe they'll end with marriage.
I first watch EPL because of Fernando Torres but naah now I'm watching it because of the game itself and Liverpool. Judge me man :P
Sometimes I lied to escape myself from problem. Sigh.
My online nickname is faha derived from fahamokha90 and derived from my real name.
The last time my heart du-geun du-geun because of a real namja was on May 2010. Wahaha. And apparently, each time @GaemGyu's tweet, he made me get a small heart attack. Keke.
I believe in partner that complete the other missing part of ourselves. Vice versa.
Hidup satu perjuangan.
I'm so ke ai because I always act like I'm the main actress in Korean drama. Like real. Lmao.
I am afraid of spider. Don't play prank with the creature.
"I am really kind of the more suffer-in-silence type."- Isabella Swan. HAHA
I made a promise with 4 of my HS besties -JazzYanTikaAna- to meet again on 2013 in a letter. And we never meet once till now *clapclap* stupid promised+letter.
People always assumed me as the-girl-who-can-cook when the fact is I-rarely-cook. Not even once on this 2011 year. Helping mum is not consider okay. *clapclap* But I have gut to say that my cook will be edible, trust me HAHA.
I can sleep while sitting.
I don't like straight forward romantic guy. Cheesy, mushy and I'll vomit D:
I'm big fan girl of Gryffindor's Quidditch's Captain Oliver Wood. Lol.

I am the girl that everyone thought I am but the truth is I am not.

60. Hate You Love You Fandoms

2011-06-15T03:32:00.004+08:00

I guess I just need to put it out of my chest.

I've been involved in Kpop fandom for about 5-6 years, since I was in Form 4. I remember when I first watch TVXQ's Rising Sun MV on 8TV and it ignites everything. Through the fandom I met so many people all over the world which I never expected before and I am proud to say that some of them even remain as friend up to this day. It all started with TVXQ, then I knew about Super Junior, I've become an active fan of both group. Never thought that these 18 OTPs would make such an impact in my life. But this 5 years life in Kpop fandoms has been a rollercoaster ride. Being a fangirl is really tiring, have you ever thought about this? Its not the matter of ruined loyalties or something like that, it just the feeling of doing the same thing all over again day by day, facing the immature fangirls, endless fanwar and many other things, real life catches up with me real fast. I feel like leaving the fandoms, but to be honest its spazzing and sharing with others that make everything special. And through this, I learn something, I grew and I become a whole new different person, hopefully the better person. As I learned about DBSJ, I learned and understand more about myself and its amazing. Outsider will never understand this.

Btw, immature fangirls in fandoms will forever be immature, till one day they'll realize it.

p/s1: I am forever relevant when it comes solely about TVXQ and SJ

p/s2: This is moody post of a fangirl :'|

p/s3: Driving test is forever afraid ;~~~;

59. Reality Which Kills Me

2011-06-11T00:34:00.003+08:00

I am having butterflies in my stomach now. In fact, lots and lots of them. I am freaking out. I really am. The fact that driving class is next week and I'm not prepared for it is freaking me out. No I haven't seat for my driving theory but it isn't takes your time right? Soon after you pass the crazy number of questions, you will directly push to the driving lesson. Oh oh. Heart is numb. Plus driving lessons are freaking expensive. Well, polluting the world's environment is fun. Ayah, can I just spend my fortune on public transport for the rest of my life? Duhh pathetic girl giving pathetic excuses. I only hope that my driving instructor do not constantly nagging my ears if I made a/ LOT of mistakes. Will pray hard for it. /o\ But I am still damn afraid ;~~~;

KYUHYUN SUCKS AT VERTICAL PARKING [ full article click here ] *omitted few lines

"It was saying that on the 1st day, Kyuhyun managed to reverse into the lot easily because there were many lots left, but on the 2nd day, the parking lots were pretty full, so he had trouble reversing in. And he parked too close to the next car on the driver's side, so he had to SQUEEZE out of the door. On the 3rd day, he took up 2 parking lots. And on the 4th day, he almost reversed into the tree behind."

[credits: superduperlove.wordpress.com]

At least this thing cheer me up ROFL XDDDD

At times, tough and shabby things happens. But no worries. Life is still all good and fun :-) Unless stated.

"Nonetheless, himnaesaeyo aegi" T^T me want that hug too

58. Big Hearted Yet Not So Remarkable

2011-06-07T17:30:00.005+08:00

When the past has gone, it doesn't mean we have lost our happiness. Happiness is not only in our memories, it's everywhere.

Few days back I went into a mission of cleaning some old stuff despite the changes of health condition that kind of worrying ( I'm having fever again, yes again ) Body is no longer immune to small changes of weather, water, food and etcetera. Back to the main topic, I found a bunch of old books and it happened to be my childhood diaries. This is so funny, really ㅋㅋㅋ Digging all the old stuff and found hilarious, special and sorrowful thing about life and school made me realized how fast time has flies. Indeed and I really miss it, luckily all the stuff embedded inside the book, what can I do except to read it again and taste the sweetness of the time (:

I was once a school girl who wore blue-white uniform that really high dreaming to achieve this and that, cheerful, careless, free will and I knew it, high school life is totally different with college life --duh the hectic life. Mind blowing. All the high-school resolutions are like still going on I guess. Yes, slow but steady. I'm on my way.

Jadi manusia tak semestinya kena ikut jalan atau kata orang lain. Yang penting adalah perasaan sendiri. Mungkin hari ini bernasib malang tapi, jangan berputus asa untuk esok. Nak esok jadi menarik, diri sendiri kena berusaha terus untuk hidup. Kita bukan hidup untuk orang lihat. Kita hidup untuk diri sendiri. Sekarang aku dapat rasakan yang senyuman aku betul-betul ikhlas.

Taken from somewhere I can't remember, copied from the diary. Well suited with the situation :] Ah by the way, I survived the Malaysian Educational System ㅋ~

p/s1: Youthday didn't affect me much compare to SS3 haha XDD

p/s2: Planning a Seoul trip lmao | next entry please

p/s3: Drive car for the first time in my life | next next entry :X

57. SJ-M Youth Day Fan Account

2011-05-31T00:02:00.006+08:00

This is a fan account of Super Junior M at Malaysia's Youth Day 2011 on May 28th 2011./orz tired/ I need to state here this is an account with me as the narrator. So its on my own view, take note :] Read it if you want and vice versa. This is a long entry.

MAY 29th 2011 - PRIOR TO THE CONCERT

It was a bright Saturday and I woke up around 6.45 A.M to get ready to the concert. I know this is freaking early and yes I'm thinking now, what the fck is waking up so early = =+ Anyway, I took like 3 hours to get ready lol and we departed from house around 9 A.M. We took train and on the way to the venue I saw two ELFs with blue shirt passing through me. It was awesome. I feel like heading to Super Show XDDD I went to Putrajaya a few times but this was the first time I went there with a public transport and of course its kinda mess up a lil bit. From KTM Serdang, it will cost you RM 2.00 to reach the Putrajaya Central. Unfortunately the bus driver only drop us down at Kementerian Kewangan building, if I'm not mistaken and he told us to take the trem provided. Kyaa~ sat inside the trem and met /LOTS/ of blue shirt people. Nope, they were non-ELFs. How can I, I don't even know ;; The best part about sitting inside the trem was when we were told that the carriage will only send us to each Presint at 2 P.M. /roll eyes/ With that cause, we decided to walk our foot on. Yap yap I asked the RELA there about the exact location of Precint 3, and they answered "How to explain this, Precint 2 is very large. But if you want to go to the main stage /which is at Precint 3/ you just need to walk straight." That's the key! And I even asked fellow t-lists on Twitter. @heenim_cloud tweet me to find a building with minarets on top while @RaeAnnie93 offered a Google Map kekeke thanks a lot t-lists are awesome buddies.

Finally with the help of some stage picture from Twitter, I managed to find the main stage lol. It was awesome with star something something decoration and the seat was half full with kpoppers, ELFs I guess. We were heading to /almost/ front seat /with no shame lmao/ and sat beside a group of girls. I had a chat with the girl beside me, and she told me that they also went to SS3 last March, the group of L4 seater. Guess what /almost/ all of them managed to shake hands with SJ and I feel so /small/ oh yeah ;; but they're so nice and even bought me one Ramlee burger lol :-) didn't managed to get their contact though. There were few kpop performances, can't really remembered all but some of them made a parody of Beast, 4Minute, Xiah/Zhang Liyin's Timeless, HoMin, and few more.

Organizer played a Sorry Sorry performance and everyone was screaming like hell is this Super Show or what?/ Lol and greeting VCR from SJ-M to Malaysian ELFs. This is heart-warming <3

REHEARSAL TIME:

I kept on updating myself with Twitter and thanks to the worst cellular service around Putrajaya, the text was literally stuck. Pfft. There was info saying that SJ-M will arrive Malaysia at 11 AM, rehearsing at 2.30 PM and performing at 10 PM. So imagine it, ELFs were rushing to the front hearing that there'll gonna be a rehearsal, ignoring the possibilities whether it is an open or just a close rehearsal. And to be exact, its a close rehearsal. This was supposed to be funny okay, they were not on stage and we can hear their live voice. So, I dig Marctentia's tweet and found this <3 Kyuhyun behind the stage~ yay. And Hyukkie's leopard's pant lmao. I also found out that SJ-M were coming here straight from KLIA via train, I guess it was KLIA Transit. Kkk this is funny XDDDD

The rehearsal was like pretty quick. I can hear Henry's Off My Mind, Mimi's 3 AM and Kyuhyun's Ru Guo Ni Ye Ting Shuo. Um btw Henry's dancers were on the stage and arguably becoming the talk of the town especially the mohawk hair dancer lmao. This one guy wearing purple shirt was on stage when our boys rehearsing behind. He does look like Kyuhyun from behind right? :3 Okay very unprofessional lmao. And people are screaming like mad, that's for sure.

LAUNCHING CEREMONY:

It was really crowded to the point that you can't even move your hand to snap a picture. Around 5 PM something, the official emcee from RTM came on the stage and greet us and taught us what to do /clap, shout, clap again/ It was such a chaos at some moment because some ELFs don't want to sit when everyone else were seating in front of the stage. Big chaos actually, and what makes it the best was that, it only happened at my corner where the other part of ELFs were successfully squeeze themselves at the tiny space. Of course the RELA /security/ will be like hell mad to the ELFs, I can understand them actually, why become so ignorance. Just sit and everything will be fine. And our Prime Minister gave his speech /time taken/ passed some award to the winner and stuff like that, I took Hishamuddin's picture yay lmao. He's the famous one I guess, maybe because the crowd aka ELFs were packed with just graduate/undergraduate high school student. He was the former Education Minister and that answered the crowd greet toward him kkk.

Picture's taking moment with the professional photographer from various news site. Everyone showing 1 Malaysia sign lmfao. Oo I see no picture of me in the front cover of newspaper kkk /slapped/

THE CONCERT:

Around 8 PM, after some kicking for spot and sarcastically mention the people behind and beside for trolling around and cause a mess, I managed to get quite a close view to the stage. Slightly right wing and I was feeling ungrateful with my height. WHY AM I SO SHORT. I saw people head and their pony hair tied in front = = And ELFs in front of me were head up their Perfection banner, its not like I'm trying condemned them with their preparation but this is not SS3 people please, people behind you can't see the stage at all /AT ALL/ Concert started with a few local acts Farah Asyikin, Nadia AF, Dewi Mentor, and Indian rocker singer and Lan from Azlan and The Typewriter /professional and listing all of them/. It was kinda fun especially the Indian part, IDK I was like okay the Tamil rock is quite nice, no kid at all. Haaa. Believe me la.

We were waiting like 1 hour more to see SJ-M. And from the Twitter updates, they were actually just finishing their media interview at nearest hotel and on the way to the venue of the concert.

And soon after that, emcee Serena C from Hitz.fm /I'm kinda surprised that she can speaks Mandarin quite well/ climb up the stage giving us much more pressure, hoohaa with us, screamed more and puff the smoke around and here they are - SUPER JUNIOR M :) Glad to see them again! /screamed+push the shutter button/ 6 of them actually SiHae are busying themselves (?) at Taiwan. They performed Perfection and proud to say the fanchant was quite successful lol. I managed to remember the name list kkk! Introduction was too fast, can't catch the words except for "Apa Khabar" but Sungmin said I love you /I think he said it few times lol/ I for sure screamed a lot during Kyuhyun part XDDDD They had a Question and Answer session with Serena C. Henry said "Since today is Youth Day, it's not about us, it's about you guys," For real. I don't care about Youth Day at all lmao. Kyuhyun said something like they always come here in Malaysia but this is the first time coming here as SJ-M^^ So dear, please come here as KRY :3 /bricked/ Serena C asked them who is the shyest, the "baby" and the most responsible among SJ-M, and crowd basically answered them with Kyuhyun, Henry and Sungmin respectively. When the members all agreed that Henry is the "baby", he started to sing a line of Justin Bieber's Baby to the delight of fans. Ah Sungmin pushed Kyuhyun to the front, but Kyu seems don't really agree with the shyest part though he was hiding behind Hyuk and Mimi lol. The MC taught them about "Sayang" part and 6 of them was like "Sarang? Sayang?" Oh yeah almost the same meaning <3 Kekeke. Love.

Soon after that, they performed "Blue Tomorrow". Too bad there were no Hae and Siwon and the most sad one is Hankyung :( I love this song btw. I /screamed/ together with Wookie at "wo ai ni bu hui gai bian" lmfao. They had another Q&A session /this is nearly to fans-meeting right <3/ this time the questions were asked by 6 lucky ELFs that was chosen /randomly/ I guess. Me want it so badly. Anyway, can't remember all. The Henry's girl was asking what thing he like about Malaysian ELFs, and he said sweet thing of course. Hmmppfft. "All Malaysian girls are hot." Etc etc. Mushy you Henry Lau, don't believe him lmao /hug/ Ryeowook got Japanese girl which asked him about what thing you want to cook if you have a girlfriend and he answered anything <3 ke ai Li Xu /bear hug/

Sungmin was kinda lucky to get a male fan lol but the thing is that the fan was too delighted till the point that he can't even asked a question to Ming, so just /hug/ hehe. Mimi and this Chinese girl were basically speaking in Mandarin/Cantonese so I can't understand. They talk about SJ-M Perfection's hand-banner and Mimi don't want to hug the girl. But but he knelt down and kissed the girl hand. Jealous. Lol. Kyuhyun part was extra jealous but its fun. The girl name is Kah Wei or something, she asked Kyu, oppa likes games more or fans more? And he /innocently/ answered with the help of translator "Tak payah tanya." quite a few times. Omigod can I cry? ;; This is so cute. And he hugged the girl twice /plus pats head/ and that's enough to make fans screamed in protest :| /I'm in protest!/ Hyuk was on the other hand thrilled me the most as he back hugged the girl!! The girl asked if he still using Donghae's underwear and he was like "That underwear is mine." lmfao.

After that was a solo performances. Henry with his "Off My Mind", Zhoumi sang his cover of Malaysian artist, Z-Chen's "3 In The Morning" and apparently Z-Chen is one of Mimi good friend :) Its a beautiful song.Wookie sang a classic Chinese song which I made a research about the title lol Teresa Teng's I Only Care For You while Kyuhyun was singing A-Mei "If You Have Heard". Hyuk surprised MJ's dance "Billy Jean" and "Smooth Criminal" was rising up the crowd mood heh. /my mood/

After the solo stage, they had a little interaction with fans when they came to the front stage. Sungmin with his cute English /cries ;;/ Part of co-ELFs at my corner was screaming "Kyuhyun, Guixian, Kyu oppa," like hell but what he did was giving us a peaceful look. Kyu, dreaming again in his own world? Oh man. Lmao. Hyuk was the closest with me at the end of the show. I saw him watching the sky /twice/ when other members giving their goodbye speech and he rubbed his eyes. Was he crying? Duhh. Don't believe me lmao. Henry's goodbye speech was /again/ so mushy. "Yesterday I felt sad to leave Taiwan, and today I feel sad to leave Malaysia." Aeng. Henry you eat too many sweets. Sungmin promised that SJ-M will comeback again to Malaysia and I'm very happy to say that Heenim promised the same thing to Malaysian ELFs. Please come back for real :) They went backstage but we all knew that they were going to sing another song which is "Super Girl", so we shouted for encore and as expected they came on and performed the song.

The mini concert or fans-meeting as Henry calls it lasted for close to one and a half hour. I can't say this is way much better than SS3 because I don't purchase Rock Pit ticket. Lol. The distance was way much nearer than SS3 but I desperately want a proper seat. Soon the concert finished, we walked of to Putrajaya Central. Take note /WALKED/ across the beautiful bridge at Putrajaya. Reach there and decided to overnight as we didn't managed to get the last bus. I can't sleep so I decided to chat on Twitter :) Around 6 AM, we took the first U42 bus to KTM Serdang. And I got a whole body-ache. Still.

Putrajaya's morning view

p/s1: I carried /almost/ 1KG laptop along the concert. How was it? Cramp shoulder.

p/s2: Because of lack of sleep, I made two biggest mistake ever. 1) Went into male restroom like no one care and people outside stared at me. 2) Asked the bus driver to stop at wrong place and he said "We're not even reach the place la dik." This is worth a facepalm and jump into a pool.

p/s3: So this is how it feels to be in free concert. Its tiring. I think this gonna be my last free concert/showcase to be attend. I rather choose to tire myself earning some money for VIP ticket than kicking people here and there for a small spot. Body ache and heart ache keke XDDDD

p/s4: I won't going to UKISS /FREE/ showcase. Bahaaha. Wth is this.

p/s5: Pictures with watermark own by me :) other than that are courtesy from @MarctensiaCert and @CCSerenaCC on Twitter. Will post the other pictures later.

p/s6: Am I writing an essay or what. Lol.

one of the best shot :-) i love this

56. Yes and Ok

2011-05-26T15:59:00.003+08:00

A female cat that just delivered her kitten is no longer comfortable to be lift on. Kittens can't really tell themselves where is the smell of a food come from. Tweeting on Twitter can bring damages if you own no brain. Doing some laundry outside the house can contribute to a better mood. Sending sister to new place needs determination. Making new business is suck to death. Reviewing some good shots from well known photographer making me appreciate more life.

Life is a mix; sweet and sour but please stir it well :)

My previous entry garnered a few difference feedbacks which I'm kinda expected it anyway. Its a Super Junior's tag simply not TVXQ's tag. Tag me one about them and I'll answer it as smart as I can be :-) Everyone with difference point of view, what else we can do with it. I'm a straight girl who like a straight guy /thisiscrap/ Have a respect, that's the key of toleration.

The differences. That what make life more livable.

So the days went on with a series of somewhat expecting event. But soon after tomorrow will be beyond the naturals. Going to meet SJ-M hihihih. Fangirlism. I hope I can secure the VVIP place if I come early, I mean in front of stage XDDD What is this bring a meaning by the way:- A 2 days non-stop travelling. Wish me luck.

55. Tag: Super Junior Super Survey

2011-05-22T01:21:00.004+08:00

I'm starting to feel the month of May, I mean it is semester break yow! 8DDDD Will answer the tag that I got from fellow ELF on Facebook :] I left it like ages ago.

**RULES: This is a pure SUPER JUNIOR ONLY survey. Once you have tagged, replace all the previous answers with your answers. Repost as SUPER JUNIOR SUPER SURVEY and tagged all ELFs in your friend lists.

(BE HONEST)

Yes or no: I memorized all members' name:

| YES. OF COURSE. XDDD But if I listed all of them randomly one by one, there's tendency that I will forget who is number 15. Exactly the truth. And I failed in Perfection fanchant during the part where ELFs need to shout all of the SJ-M member names because I confused. Is this accepted? Lmao.

Only13 or I love both Henry and Zhoumi:

| Only15 ZhouRy together made oneSJ <3

Favorite member (s):

| I love all but I've Kyuhyun and Eunhyuk as biases kkk and sometimes Yesung :-)

Favorite singer (s):

| /dancing/ its Kyuhyun angelic voice for sure ♥ But I love Yesung's voice too, my ears can easily recognized Donghae's, but I'm not sure if he's the perfect one for the answer HAHA.

Favorite rapper:

| Err, RapperKyu? Lmao. Rarely rap and it's kinda nice?

Favorite dancer (s):

| This is so bias but the answer is Kyuhyun hahah just because he is stiff. This question is about favorite okay not the best dancer /mehrong/ lol. Hyukjae's forever SJ's dancing machine.

Favorite radio DJ (s):

| This is difficult, so I passed for deeper thinking hhehe. Leeteuk for sure....... I have this guy below in my mind though XDDD

Favorite couple:

| KyuHyuk. I love the randomness with the pair that lack of attention. One main reason is the not-so-popular OTPs like Kyuhyuk, Haemin even KyuChul or KyuWook /why got so many Q/ when they do interact, it feels a little more legitimate and sincere. They don't do it on the name of fan-service, no offence :]

Favorite actor:

| Kyuhyun. Somewhere in Secret Garden Parody. Aaaaaahh Kyunbin. Lol.

Favorite CF Star:

| Siwooooon. THIS MUCH. Kyocheon CF. He stands out the rest with his weird chef looking lmao.

Favorite drama by Super Junior's member:

| Can I say Skip Beat? It sounds nice lol. /forecast/

Favorite song:

| Deep thought. It's Marry You /fangirling much/ um You and I is nice too.Why I Like You, Reset, Monster /listing 3jib lmao/ I Am, Sapphire Blue. No Other. Ah Blue Tomorrow is included right? Yaa just take the first answer = =

Favorite cover: (other song that they sang)

| Deep thought. Kyuhyun's Listen To You? ♥

Favorite smile:

| Leeteuk. Who can resist his smiley dimple? ^_____________^

Favorite hairstyle:

| For this current situation where /Kyu's mushroom hair/ I put my vote on Donghae. Hae's bright red hair is awesome 8DD

Favorite member in glasses:

| Dododonghai

Most charismatic:

| Kyuhyun? Lmao. See the prove below.

Most charming:

| Sungmin kkk.

Most noisiest:

| Heechul who else? The second might be between Kangin/Leeteuk XD

Most loving:

| Eunhyuk? Somewhere in EHB reminds me how much he loves SJ :')

Most diligent:

| Leeteuk as a leader.

Most hardworking:

| Shindong. Why should not him? He is the one.

Most romantic:

| Donghae, he has the sweetest mouth/brain ever.

Most childish:

| Kyuhyun. He is.

Most "lost":

| Yesung. Ehhh?

Sexiest:

| I want to put the answer as Siwon, but as a girl /lol/ I think Hyuk is much more sexier than him. It's not about abs or what, Hyuk is just being sexy in different way. /whatamiwritingnow/

Cutest:

| Mochi Henry. He is cute. Ohmy what a comment = =

Funniest:

| Weirest Yesung and his pets <3

Prettiest:

| Heenim/Kyuhyun. Somewhere in Intimate Note, my non-kpoppers friends praised Heenim for his beautiful Heesica, and I think Kyu is quite attractive as KyuYoung rofl

Best dresser:

| Err, Hae? Oh no I hate sleeveless clothes. Hankyung (Eh?)

Best overall member: (in dancing+singing)

| Kyuhyun. No biases it's a fact.

Most likely to get married first:

| Eunhyuk <3

Most likely to get the most girlfriends:

| Donghae? Or Heenim. Or maybe Kyuhyun himself. He looks friendly with everyone. Kyu-pairing are like hundred.

Who will make a good husband:

| Kyuhyun bwahaha obviously wanna get married with him/

Who will make a good boyfriend:

| Kyuhyun /woohup/

Who will make the best older brother:

| I want Hankyung IDKY. I think he'll comfort and protect me just like when he's besides Heechul :]

Who will make the best younger brother:

| Ryeowook~ :D He will cook for me when I feel hungry XD Will chat with me about anything. I think the height differences won't be a problem /o/ lmao

Who will make the best father:

| Leeteuk? He seems the easiest one to get bullied. So in this point of view of a daughter, the best father is the one that can give us anything without much questions. Or else we will screw him. Lol.

Are you willing to support them till the end?

| This is a YES :]

Tired. And bias isn't it? Lol. Will do some blog-walking and left the tag at your chatbox readers :]

54. To Be Free, To Be Free

2011-05-17T23:32:00.003+08:00

When you have nothing to say, say nothing. When you have lots of thing to say, say it everything.

3 days lingering around the house and done nothing. That's me. Hi I've posted my latest entry last May 12th but due to some freaking annoying things happened on Blogger, the precious #53 entry was deleted. Nevertheless, here I am again, not typing the same word but posting the same old pictures (?) Can you smell some crappiness surrounding the entry /sniff/ Naah digging the template section never makes life-less senses till the point that you think that you're too lazy to change the html part. So I'm gonna stick to this blogskin to.... the end?

Well, life without lecture and tutorial is always awesome unless you're in love with your lecturer /crap/ And I'm tying to appreciate all this moment in house with something good for example tweeting for the whole days orz, reading Kpop news on forum etc etc. Jeehan going to Matrikulasi Johor next Monday so I spend precious days with her by watching Running Man together. How sweet is that? Korean thing do matter in family relationship I told ya. And today is younger brother's sweet 15th birthday and he's at boarding school. By any chance, he might be showered /for real/ with shampoo, eggs past midnight? Lol. Having a plan to do some laundries tomorrow /jotting diary/ I might also send back the reply email from one Kpopshop about our semester project. I've delayed it too many days. 화이팅 for that! :-) Dad suggestion: taking a driving course with mum /sighs/ you've driving me nuts you know. I never drive a car before /exception goes to Need for Speed Underground 2/ OMG I'm so scare ;~~~;

Is there a need to display what we want to thank to the public? Aww I guess there is the need. Nevertheless, I may not saying/posting this to your FB wall but you know what I think don't you? No you don't, that's why I'm a bad student. On the positive side, I don't have to brag anything in front of others. As simple as that.

For what I've got today, "thank you" is never enough. Happy Teacher's Day :")

Past few weeks ago, I've spazzed on Twitter about how my female cat /which whom I called "mummy" in front of her child/ delivered a four cute kitten. And the kittens are innocently really active days and nights. Ah yes they spend quite a quality time with trolling around the house, sleeping, and /drinking/ milk from mummy lmao. Dad decided to named all four of them with some weird name which I don't like. And honestly I want all of them to be named after the infamous Jiji, Heebum, Kkoming and Tigger. Btw, they bite. =_______=

And this is Yesung's oppa Kkoming which I found out almost looks like my pet. Though she is actually a puppy. Heehhee. Mine is cuter though XDDD

[20110517] Yesung tweet: 오랜만에 만난 우리꼬밍이~ 오빠온졸도모르고 잠만자구있구나아~~^^ㅎㅎ

Translation: Our Kkoming that I didn't see for a long time~ Doesn't know oppa came and only sleeps all the time~~^^ haha,

*Kkoming is Yesung little dog, she's Black Pomeranian. Kkoming is a girl, so Yesung mention Kkoming called him by "oppa". (cr: @Yesungworld)

Cute what else to be expressed? The pet and the owner /pointing at herself/ lmao. Bye for now. ♥

53. Ain't About Cha-Ching, It's About My Mum

2011-05-08T14:18:00.004+08:00

Uhm hi blog.

My examination week is still on. But never mind, no matter how hard I'll just move on and on and on. I had my toughest week anyway, living almost 96 hours without laptop /my whole body and hands and fingers are itchy to be honest orz. I can't even ;________; Kpop songs, videos, pictures are all embedded inside the gadgets. Life is difficult please imagine it. That's was actually a promise from sister to sister so I'll take it as an excessive experience of being a laptop-less student. Soobbss. Spoil girl. Wake up. /slaps

For some weird reason, today is chosen as a special day with cause it's a Mother's Day.... /Okay that's not weird. Erm, well. Make it sloppy lol.

There's one time I'm mad with you

There's one time I hate you

There's one time I don't want to talk with you

There's one time I think my life is dictated by you

But one thing you must know

Through all your hardship on me, I know you love me.

You are my hero, my all time wonder women.

You're always there when I smile and cry.

There is no one can replaced you.

My one and only.

Not only today.

But forever.

I love you mum, Puan Mariam Ibrahim.

Umm so serious lol. To be honest I'm much closer to dad. Ah yeah but mum is mum.

To whom I should show my kindness? To your mother, next your mother, next your mother and then comes your father. Cause who use to hold you and clean you and clothes you. Who used to feed you and always be with you. When you were sick, stay up all night, holding you tight. That's right no other. My mother. Our mother /borrowing lyrics lmao :-)

Mum. Who protect me like SJ protecting meh zoooom~ /eheh so crap

52. Call Out My Heart and Free My Soul

2011-05-02T01:57:00.003+08:00

Ohay, I'm writing this in a rush because I need to do my extra revision now XDDD Well just came back from cousin's wedding and I'm as usual was in the state where uncomfortable conquered the whole situation. Never mind though. I'll persevere :]

Gonna post something that I played randomly few days or months back. Hehe I know this is childish, but who cares. This is my blog anyway. Ahem. I was born on December 16th, currently wearing blue shirt on 1.13AM --so its 3. That's mean, I held hands with Kyuhyun in front of my parents & he was like embarrassed. I HELD HANDS WITH KYUHYUN IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS AND HE WAS LIKE OMGEE EMBARRASSED..?! OMGWTF as a fangirl, I should die happily now. Lmao. I held hands with Kyu---♪ /dancing/ its a fate. Naaaah, its not me the one who made this photo. I took it from tumblr :P Thanks mum for delivered me on December 16th lol. Oh yeah so funneh. Hmmffp.

I just found out that Teukie oppa looks so sexy by hitting his chest, looking down before attacking us by eyes straight to our heart on No Other MV. "GASEUMI SORICHYEO MARHAE" lol. /craps/ I knew it. =___________= Ah yeah, not to late to mention, SJ-M is going here again. How can I. SPAAZZZZZZZZ MODE IS ON. I am going. I will be there. I want to see Kyuhyun again. I will shout Saranghae more to him. I will pay more attention on him. I will remember the Mandarin lyrics and sing Mandarin with him. I will stand for him. I will lost my voice again. But I will show my love more to him. So please come to Malaysia for real

They'll be here with the conjunction of Malaysia Youth Day 2011 at Putrajaya this May 28th. Hella weird. Youth Day, Malaysia and SuJu are just o______O Never mind, as long as I'm happy, I won't bother about that. And and btw, I will not write any post or comment about how Kpop brings negative effect on Malaysian teenagers according to Berita Harian on May 24th issue. It just worthless to spazz. You guys know the truth and me won't elaborate it more.

Going back to college so I'm sad. Truly, the one who always lazy.

51. Break Out The Hardest Shell

2011-04-27T10:06:00.003+08:00

It's 7.33 AM and heavy rains here at hometown. The feeling of having a bucket full of water in the morning reminds me of school days. Raining and I'll be the one who was the most laziest to go to school. Hehe. How I miss the feeling of wearing school uniform /craps but I mean it like crazeeh. How many years did I left the school days? 4 years. Seasons are changing and waves are crashing but I'm still here, stand up like nobody care.

What will I be years from now?

What will I wear? How will I look?

I think too much, I think too much.

Sometimes its scary over thinking

What you have or haven't done

You think too much, you think too much.

Will the rain smell the same?

Will I lose in treacherous games?

And the stars might shine but colors seem so blurry.

Will I end up all alone, without a shoulder to cry on

What will I be years from now

Oh well, life was not that good few days back. I was screwed to the maximum when somebody somebody urrggh.. don't treat me very well. As I don't treat them that well too orz. My final exam will be started next week and I'll just let it flow smoothly as much as I can, fighting (: Can't wait to finish this hellish semester. Not that I'm excited with my coming driving lesson along the holiday though /I don't want/ I'm just hating this semester to the bottom of my heart.

Talking about semester end, there'll be something to be look forward on the next new semester. We need to form a group of company with a small investment in whatever business that we want. My partner and I, hellyeah are Kpop addict so we decided to invest some money on Kpopshop. I'm not sure if its going on plan or not but hopefully it will :] I've contacted few distributor from somewhere somewhere and up to this point, everything seems on the plan. It just a semester assignment so I won't take it too serious. But but my dearest fellow readers, do support me on this matter, I might need your big help keke. /dancing/ Maybe a LIKE on Facebook will do a favor! Hahahaaaaaahhhh crazy bug.

I'm currently in the mood of considering to change the blog-skin after quite sometimes. Maybe soon after the end of final exam. Hella awesome, but I've using this skin for a year! And yeah it almost closer to the first anniversary of this blog XDDDD A year with "productive" entries, oh my cry me to heaven /fail/ In the mean time please be prepared to see something like "BLOG IS UNDER RE-CONSTRUCTION" keke. For the win <3

One of the awesome thing that come to pass on this semester should be crown to Super Show 3 Kuala Lumpur. Call me crazy or delusional fan girl but I /still/ can't believe that I met SJ <3 much love for making my heart beat jumps crazily every time we talk about SS3 hahaha. I haven't post any Sapphire Blue ocean view for that night right? All my photo were suck to be honest, but here is one of the picture out of the place that catch my heart. Malaysian very own Sapphire Blue ocean :] /proud mother mode XDDD

Ay ay let spazz about Kpop stuff for a moment. There are few fans-meeting to come in few months gap. UKISSeu, 2AM, Jang Geunsuk /hwaaangtaekyungseobang/ and not that sure Big Bang is back to town yo /sighss/ how can I? Tell me tell me. I'm earning money earnestly for JYJ concert and Super Show 4 /too early? lmao/ but seems that there is no hope left for JYJ so I'm thinking of ../a second please! There's rumor saying that SHINee's coming to town this August too. I may not a ShaWol but I'm a big big supporter of Kyu-Line /heck just write that you want to meet Minho/ ohhaythereminhoappa (/=v=)/ lol

What a long entry that took much longer time to type. Gonna end this with a photo. Was taken while waiting for SJ at KLIA. This memorable yellow sandal is forever precious. Lmao. /hitthesack/ Happy 6th Anniversary Tohoshinki. 6 years forever love on and on ♥ Byebye <3

50. Because I Just Made My First GIF

2011-04-16T12:26:00.005+08:00

Finally, my GIFs are working properly ~<3 This is so epic moment. I came to rationalistic to hit the "Save For Web and Devices" button on Photoshop like no one ever realize before. Never realize. It was my stupid mistake. No wonder my GIF never works out before this =___________= AH AH Drums-roll please~ XDDD

I made this like months ago but its not working on web, but sad no more now ^________________^ /childish HAHAMUAAHUGS

YongSeo moment ♥ I still remember that night I was blushing so hard after watching this. At least Seohyun is dare enough to hold Yonghwa's hand. Do you? ;D AHAHAH

why this GIF below is so big in size and pixel =__________= /small click small/ ㅋ

I think SongSong Couple's have lots of skinships but it happened on the task, so basically people don't really noticed them. Its a secret <3

Gonna end this with SS3 Malaysia stuffs. Yeah I know hellyeah hangover its a month already oh God.

1) Kyu greets and shakes hand with ELFs

2) ELFs pull him toward them

3) Malaysian ELFs molest Kyu's body ohyeah =______= /jealous lmao/

For your information, these are stiff pictures. Hehe.

p/s: hometown is love so, I'm coming ♥

49. My Nonsense Worrying

2011-04-10T17:12:00.003+08:00

I'm in mood of stalking.

This is basically what happened when there's course-mate presentation in front of me. I don't care about the thing (=__________=) I just care myself. I was boring to death and ended up sketching something something. I don't even know why, but the sketch just reminds me to my past years. My high-school mates. My 2003-2007 batch. I miss you guys like crazy. But I didn't show it right? Not on Facebook for sure. Somehow we seem to be act like an outsider to one another. /sigh/ Full stop. My mistake. I'm too stiff.

Aegi Kyuhyun sent a tweet "미안합니다.. 미안해요" [trans: I'm sorry.. I'm sorry] on April 8th gathered all ELFs with thousand of questions. Lack of tweet and out of blue asking for forgiveness? And it was answered the same day. He was involved in small car accident. My bad. Luckily he just had a small bruises at his legs and hand. He might feel depressed with the accident and yeah, I think he is kinda facing some bad trauma on April. Last 4 years ago, on April 19th he was badly injured and hellyeah, the date is gonna haunting him again.

Oppa,

You don't have to feel sorry at all. Thanks god for another chance given. Please stay healthy.

Parents' birthday somehow are getting nearer. Its on April 10th /tomorrow/ and 18th. Don't think I have that time to go back hometown for each occasion. I'm freaking wanna cry right now o__________o

p/s: there's one person name that I wrote more than one in the sketch ---- 조규현ㅋㅋㅋ

and please ignore that "macam biawak" wordsㅋ

48. Forever Gorgeous

2011-04-03T16:52:00.004+08:00

Hot Sunday afternoon (:

Hi. I'm here to write some updates about me. HAHA. Fail blogger. Well, apparently I can't sort out whether I am really busy at the moment or not. There are moment of compiling thousand of works, but there'll be a second of doing some craps. To be honest there are uncountable time where I spent carelessly on lappy by doing nothing.

* I can't wait for study week. Its like the only reason to chill at home instead of doing the last minutes study. There's some thought that my name will be in the list to attend extra classes /I'm such a fail student in this semester/ and stuff like that, but my intention of going back hometown is bigger than that. My English paper is the biggest fear at the moment. Madam always looks forward for my works and I guess she expects something from me. When the fact is, I didn't do anything to please her at all. AT ALL. /capslock/

* Apparently, I just got hitch with Tumblr. No I mean I started to learn it well. I have this account since stone age but having some sort of difficulties of understanding the Tumblr engrish :P Well, guess everyone have the same reason about their Tumblr account existence. The picture, image and stuff are so well captured and edited :) And I played a lot with Photoshop this week. /Index finger pointing to picture below/

* I had some plan on visiting KLIA again last Saturday. No specific reason. I just missing the place. But due to the lack of sleep past few days, I was so tired and thus will postponed this activity to the other time. Somehow I heard that next week there'll be Eunhyuk's birthday gathering at somewhere somewhere around here. /Iamsobusybodylmao/ Will check for the venue later <3

*And ohyesh tomorrow is our Asian very own Anchovy LeeHyukJae's birthday yaaaaaay. Dear Eunhyuk oppa, if there's no Kyuhyun in SJ, I bet you'll be my ultimate bias. Bet you'll received thii--------iiis lots of love from me (: /but there's Kyu, I see only Kyu/ hehe. Wish you all the best oppa. Out of SJ members, you're the most friendly. You might not the be coolest one but you're the warmest, at heart (: You will married first, yeah after Shindong lmao. I'm wishing you to meet a good Korean girl that will take care of you, as you had no intention of marrying foreign girl T________T And please follow @0101xiahtic on Twitter, you dummy. I'm still waiting for you to tweet harsh cute words to DolphinXiah. Aeng~ XDDD Lots of love from me, saranghae Lee Hyukjae. My monkey, my only anchovy.

* Well, it raining just now. Life is unpredictable indeed. 2 weeks after SS3, I still watching the fan-cam and engrossed with the concert. Missing them. I found this picture when TeukieTeukie shows the "Saranghae" sign to our block L1. I think I can even see myself in the picture lmao. Teukie oppa, I love you too. /sobs/

p/s: I keep changing the head banner. Hihihi.

47. Love Letter For Cho Kyuhyun

2011-03-30T11:27:00.004+08:00

Random thing. I just want to write something here. :)

2. Write a letter to the person you like.
Disclaimer: This going to be a mushy, oily, cheesy or whatever you called it-entry. Read it on your own risk XDDD

Dear person.

Its obvious right? You know who you are. My days and nights are spend by thinking of you. I don't even bother to know about other Korean guys more than you. Its amazing that I don't even give a fucking care about the real namja around me, coughcoursematescough. I only have my eyes on you. Its not like you're the most handsome guy on earth that I can't compare with anyone out there. No. You're not even the most handsome member in SJ /I think its Donghae--sighs/ It was old but still in my memory when the first time I saw you. Its was U /ignored you/ But stalking shyly at Marry You. Read about your car accident but pretend nothing happened. Saw you at Sorry Sorry and yeah. That's the beginning :) /facepalm lmao/ But seriously, I don't even know what had happened on me. For sure, I'm mature enough to think that you're just my high dream, a Korean crush, sooner or later, it will fade away.

Its weird but when I saw you in Super Show 3 last week ago, there's part of me believe that nothing is impossible. You're a real deal in world. I saw the real you ran and played in front of me when others watch you on MV. The chance of waiting for SJ at KLIA totally changed my perception on you. No specific reason but I really want to see the real you. Without make-up, no fancy outfit, messy hair and moody. I want to see the real you. Just you. I'm stalking you on internet like no one care. I pasted your hand-banner in front of my desk hoping that you'll see it sooner of later. Showing my loyalties with your cute button on bag /childish/ When classmates called me Mrs Cho, I feel so happy /rofl/

What make you appear in my eyes? What always keep you appear? If I lie down and close my eyes, why is your face reminded here /okayh this is copied from Secret Garden's OST Appear lol/

Recently I keep on comparing you with my first crush. He was once a quiet guy. I don't know this is too intimate. But I see him when I see you. I see you in my world, Cho Kyuhyun.

p/s: I should write this letter in Hangul ;_______; BTW, this is fan-girl mode. HAHAH.

46. Super Show 3 Malaysia Fan Account

2011-03-23T00:30:00.005+08:00

This going to be a damn long post. Please bear with it <3

March 18th 2011 - PRIOR TO THE CONCERT:

This was actually something to do with previous entry---- my wish to welcome SJ to Malaysia at KLIA. So it was actually granted though I might say that I can't even saw a glance of SJ appearance at the airport. I traveled to KLIA via train and reached there around 2.00 PM. It was like a surprise visit as I had no idea on what to do next. I checked for the nearest information board and found the arrival hall's direction. There was no sign of other ELFs, so I just wandered there alone alongside with the other people who were waiting for their guest at the arrival hall. The flight information stated that there will be a plane from Incheon that will landed here round 2.51 PM. But I don't see anything with SJ flight at 4.50 PM. Still I decided to queue around the line and randomly heard a group of girls practiced "OPPA NEOMU YEOPPOYO". Definitely a group of ELFs lol. I met two of the ELFs and had a simple chit chat about SJ. One girl is Donghae's bias (she kept on wavered the OnlyHae's towel) while another one is Heechul bias. A group of girl arrived behind us and they brought a big board written SUPER JUNIOR lol. That was funny yet very admiring. Soon before the 2.51 PM flight from Incheon arrived, a group of Korean guys from Prudential Company came (they waited for a group of guest from South Korean for some conference maybe) and flooded in front of us. What make it more funnier is that some of them did recognized the SJ board and took a picture of us LMAO.

At 4.00 PM, the crowd had become much larger in size. I saw lot of girls wearing blue shirt and holding a board. We waited patiently while kept on updated ourself with Twitter. I can say that ELF were very excited to see SJ as they screamed hard with some small teases. I mean, its Incheon flight and expect more Korean people to pass in front of us, ELFs can't help but to scream at them lol. We waited them but soon when the clock hit 5.00 PM, there was still no sign of SJ. ELFs shouted "Saranghaeyo Super Junior" along the time. It was amazing. I do hope that SJ oppa heard this chanting, we really love them :') There's update from Twitter saying that Leeteuk oppa was the first to go out from flight yet we can't see any glance of them at KLIA. So some of ELFs ran to the other arrival hall (they managed to catch a few pictures of Donghae's waving them) while I was having some problem with camera /psstt short of battery lol/ From what they've told us, there were 5 or 6 white van waited for SJ outside of KLIA and basically there were more or less very few ELFs at that area /we are so dumbfounded I know/ Do watch the Youtube video about this thing. HAHA. So, I went home with pretty little pissed off /ohyesitwaslikewth/ but overall it was an awesome experience as a fangirl <3 IDK if all of you had some experience on this, but this was my first and I'm so excited about it^^

March 19th 2011 - PRIOR TO THE CONCERT:

I made a list on what to bring on the concert. Yeah like what happened on movie, the actress forgot lots of thing and that's what happened on me. HAHA. But it was awesome morning, I listened to Happiness and can't believe myself that I was on my way to meet them, the singer of Happiness song. Super Junior. My 3 ELFs' friends and I took our train and headed to another station where it will bring us to Bukit Jalil Stadium. Along the way, I tried to remember the half part of Yesung's It Has To Be You lyrics. Oh yeah I remembered it finally :) The train was like instant and we were heading to Bukit Jalil Putra Indoor Stadium around 10 AM. When we arrived, I expected to see some tents /maybe a camp?/ of ELFs but what I saw was a 20 meters queue in front of Rock Pitt section. In the morning, where the stadium will only be open at 4.00 PM? Great. The ELFs who bought Rockpit want to have a better view on the show. As for me who bought the terrace seat, I had no problem to find my place. There were like fiesta where people were selling and buying stuff for the concert. There were A&W stall, Walls Ice-Cream stall lol and the official booth for SS3 Merchandise. I bought myself a Kyuhyun button, SuJu's bag and a tag. After that, I met the light-stick distributor for whom I had ordered on Facebook before this. The largest SJ's fanclub in Malaysia, MySJ also distributed free hand-banner and frank to say, my hand was full with lots of hand-banner, fan-chant lyrics, Ryeowook, Yesung and Donghae's cards and SJ's calendar. HAHA free gifts always made me happy lol.

Around 2 PM, I started to queue and fortunately managed to get the first row lol /damn excited girl/. There were two 15 years old girls and one Indonesian ELFs behind me so we had a two hours chat about Kpop stuff and ended up changing each other Facebook account. It was raining at that moment and in the pressuring hours of waiting for the gate open, there were so many chaos happened. Some of them said that they saw Donghae oppa passed by in front of the stadium entrance. I have no idea about that though as I sat in front of the gate and I saw nothing =.= Around 4 PM finally the security opened the gate and I was all excited. To be honest, the security didn't even open my bag to check whether I brought something suspicious or what. I even asked them is it okay to bring umbrella inside the stadium and they have no problem with that. HAHA.

AT THE PUTRA INDOOR STADIUM:

We started to fill up the stadium around 4.30 PM. You know what, the moment I entered the indoor stadium, I was like /starstruck/ The large LED screen displayed "SUPER SHOW 3 KUALA LUMPUR" and believe me the moment you saw that, you feel something to cry about. It was like finally I will meet SJ. Like finally. After being a devoted ELFs for years ago. The view was awesome, the stage feel like super near to us. I jumped like a child HAHA /too excited/ and eyes was starts to feel with tears. The organizer played few SJ's songs and ELFs started to sing along, most prominently on Neorago (It's You) Its remind me of Hangeng though. Sobs. Two DJ's entered and asked us to sing Sorry Sorry and they danced with the tune. Lol. Can't help but to feel that the pressure already high.

THE CONCERT:

I won't write this in great details as I think you'll be dying of boredom about the song listed on SS3. I'll just write the thing that I found interesting along the showㅋㅋ Well, the moment light went off the stage, ELFs went wild and started to scream hard. The opening VCR played, I think the VCR singer was Yesung oppa. And the song definitely high me up but I was all captivated by Sapphire Blue Sea. I can't believe that I'm part of them, waving the light-stick :') The VCR end and THERE HE IS. FLYING UP. DESCENDED FROM THE SKY. LEE DONGHAE. Starstruck for sure. I saw him in SJ's Full House and now he flied in front of me. Okayh the comparison is funny. HAHA. It was precious moment definitely. I think my Hae biased friend already sobbing beside me. Soon after that, 10 of them appeared beautifully, it was like a group of dolls without soul. White outfit. I saw Kyuhyun. Ohgosh. Flail.

INTRODUCTION:

The introduction was so funny. I can't remember all but Kyuhyun, Heechul, Eunhyuk, Shindong, Donghae, Leeteuk, Sungmin, Siwon /almost all lol/ do catch some funny moment. Pharaoh Kyu was shaking his head along the intro and Siwon flapping his red skirt lmao. Heechul came and ordered us to answer his Wu Yo Pi Gar Kim Heechul with "Saranghaeyo Kim Heechul". And "kiss me baby" for sure lol. Shindong keeps on shouting Malaysia in Mandarin and ended up with "Miss A Jia" HAHAH. Sungmin said "I Love You" /aww/ haha and Eunhyuk revived us to follow him "SAY YEAAH SAY YEAHH SAY YEAAAH" and ended up whispering mushy thing "SAY CHEEEH" lol. Donghae only shouted "WAAHHH" for three times /that is so---/ Anyway Teukie oppa did something more weird. He acted like a rich Arabian businessman with his weird laugh and threw 2 bottles to ELFs at Rockpit. ROFL.

CLOSEST MOMENT:

Frank to say, Siwon was the most member coming to my block /sigh/ Its not like I'm ignoring him but I want Kyuhyun LOL /honesty is the best policy/. I saw Kyuhyun jumped and danced at L17 and L18, and I was like "God please bring him here" He did came to our block but just passed by. Urrgghhh :( Leeteuk was the second after Siwon, he taught us how to dance on Song For You. It was so cute :3 ♫ Saranghaeyo (Love sign), Chukbokhaeyo (hug sign), Dangshinui maeume (Point to the audience), Sarangeul duhreulyeol (Love sign)♪ Aww. I was so touch /almost crying/ each time he pointed to us. You can feel that he really appreciated his ELFs. Leeteuk oppa is the best leader <3 Donghae came at third. He is so photogenic lmao. Flashing of camera made him so damn gorgeous. He loves selca. He did it few times with the VIP ELFs. Sexy fishy. With red dyed hair, he do looks like a playboy though. HAHA. Hae's fan-service was the awesome one!

SOLO PERFORMANCES:

Among the solo performance, I absolutely think that Yesung was one of the best and the most unforgettable. Not because all my hard-work on remembering his song lyrics already paid off, but it was more into the satisfaction showed on his face. The whole stadium was together chanting It Has To Be You. When Yesung reached the chorus of the song, ELFs beneath the stage all sang it with him at the top of their voice. He looked extremely touched :') Aww oppa. And oh yeah he smiled a lot, like an angel. A LOT. During that solo performance. I'm really happy that Malaysian ELFs touched his heart. /Ohyes he sent a tweet about SS3Malaysia soon after reached Korea right?/ Keke. Another solo performance that managed to capture my attention was Leeteuk's Kiss Goodbye. The song originally sang by Wang Leehom, and its like ages since the last time I heard that song. He sang it with the exact pronunciation and I bet the song was well dedicated to ELFs. He's going to army next year right? :'( Hey, he smiled to ELFs at the end of the song, and yeah I saw his famous dimple lol! Henry's BABY! Come on, I bet all girls watching his performance will be melting. He's growing up! Mochi Henry. Definitely loving his rendition a lot better than Justin Bieber heheh. I'm not that excited on EunHae and Ming's solo performances /I closed my eyes ohyesh lol/ oh god that were so sexy intimate dance. ELFs were screamed in protest. LMAO. Hyuk's English pronunciation in Down was so adorable. "Even if the sky is FARLING down" lol.

Kyuhyun is ♥ when he sang New Endless Love. But seriously I did recognized something about him. He is so mean. He just ignored my shout lmao XDDD He passed by us and his face was freaking no feeling. He sang in front of hundred screaming ELFs at Rockpit but he looked damn peaceful. Lol. He was so slow during the few first songs but very energetic on the last few songs. I wonder why. But he will always be my EvilKyu /mushy/ HAHAH. I did some video record on Ryeowook solo performance. Because his voice is so beautiful so I was blankly stare at him till the end *o* And yeah Sungmin's guitar was so adorable :) There was no Lady HeeHee, as it was overly rated in Malaysia. I know Heenim want to chill with Malaysian ELFs /as what he posted on Twitter/ but apparently it was best for him as he might ended with a hit on head with a plastic bottle if he ever wear that Lady HeeHee outfit. Lol. I'm the one that will throw him the bottle. He's too handsome for that Lady HeeHee =.= Zhoumi's Miss Chic was pretty awkward as the song was originally sang by a female Taiwan artist but I love it very much! He's so tall that you will expect that his dance won't be very good but he is actually performed it well <3 Kangin's tribute was heart-warming that causing you to cry. Tears was brimming, I couldn't help but to reminiscent some good memory with Kangin and Hangeng. Yes I do miss them as 13. Forever 13.

PLAYFUL TIME:

During No Other, Leeteuk and Sungmin also became a flying angels. Both of them tied onto the balloons and sprinkled some blue paper in the air, and Teuk imitated an octopus. Lol. I tried to catch the blue paper and managed to get one. AHHH, indirect holding hand with Teukie oppa rofl. Rokkugo was funny. Ming, Hyuk and Teuk were laying on the stage in front us. Soon after that, Shindong came and piled on top of them. Chullae was standing next, I had some bad feeling and oh yes he joined the piled on the top lmao XDDD Hae's wore the angel scarf threw by ELFs and asked them whether it looks okay on him or not. He took some gift, t-shirt and towel from fans and oh yeah during Song For You, Ming got a box of SJ's doll and he was giggling like a girl ohmygosh he was so cute! They distributed the basket of colorful ball around the stadium. Kyuhyun was the closest at that moment. He ran straight to my block and I was like Oh My God he's coming but he as always /sigh/.. went to L3. He took time to sign the ball. How lucky who ever get the ball. Eunhyuk on the other hand kissed each ball before threw it to ELFs. I'm dying to get that ball lol. Indirect kiss?? Shindong seemed want to throw the ball at my direction but the ball ended up flying only 5 meters in front of him. OTL I think Shindong was too lazy to throw the ball one by one, so he decided to pour the whole ball inside the basket to the Rockpit nearby. HAHA. Donghae and Ming found a stick threw by ELFs and started to do some baseball action on the middle of stage. Lol. Adorable.

Cooking Cooking as always was the most fun among the rest. The boys were less tense and they were really enjoyed the stage at that moment. I saw Yesung with his Cabbage costume clearly as he was stand in front of our block. Definitely searching for PapriKyu, I saw him at the corner of L18 with Mushroom Hyuk. Hyuk was rolling on the floor and couldn't get up after that and Kyu tried to help him up. After some few tries, he was a bit fed up and threw Hyuk's hand and began to kick him. ROFL, my evil Kyu! This is too much, but soon when they headed to the center of the stage, he held Hyuk's hand and walked together <3 KyuHyuk alert! There's lack of Heenim in this round. He was not there wearing his ChillHEE. I was a bit disappointed but soon after ELFs shouted his name, he appeared and giggled innocently. I wonder what's in his mind actually. HAHA. Nearing to the end of the show, Teukie Teukie ran along each block and did Saranghae sign and bow while shouting Kamsahamnida. Aww he really touch my heart. I know deep inside his heart, he really loves us, his ELFs :')

ENDING:

Heenim was not around during the train session /I mean SJ went around the stage like a train to thank the ELFs/ When he appeared with his face mask and hellyeah he was weird AB guy. He danced to Perfection song, "Oh Tai Wan Mei!" all of sudden lmao XDDD "Thank you I love you so much. Don't worry I don't sick." (?) And suddenly pointed at Siwon and Sungmin, "This is Horse and this is Pumpkin". He also said, "See you in SS4 Malaysia next year." Believe you Hee oppa, I'll keep this as a promise! Everyone was really hyped and talked in random English. Ryeowook said I love you shyly, HAHA. Zhoumi was all smiling through the end and asked us "Are you happy?" causing all ELFs to scream at him. He answered back "I'm happy too^^" /lol emoticon/ Henry was playing with windmill when Teukie asked him to give his ending speech. He thanked everyone here in Malaysia and added some compliment by saying that he enjoys reading tweets on Twitter and 70% of the tweets he received were mostly from Malaysia. Lol. I sent him one or two. Aww, will send more to him later XDD Hae went and said "I will see you on Twitter tonight". Rofl a group of Twitter addicts. Btw, Hae didn't tweet that night. =.="

Yesung also spoke in English though it was just a part of simple sentence, I bet all Cloudy felt very happy. He said "Kiss me darling" lmao I was laughing hard at this moment. He was so cheesy and Hyuk was disturbing him by touching his philtrum. He felt pissed and slapped Hyuk lol. When Kyuhyun gave his ending speech, Yesung touched his philtrum, I wonder if his habit had spreaded to the whole dorm of SJ? HAHA. Oh yes, Kyuhyun spoke amazing English that night. "Lately I have had the strangest feeling, with no vivid reason here to find... the thought of losing you has been hanging..." Aww you won't losing me Kyu lol. Soon I found out that the line was actually taken from Stevie Wonder's song, Lately. Oh lol-ing at Kyu. Evil. Donghae kept on recite or sing (?) the Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are. "When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change" He's cute isn't it? :D

While everyone was leaving the stage, Hyuk was asking Yesung in English, "Are you ready?" before four of the boys, Hyuk, Yesung, Hae and Henry stood one another and stuck out their thumbs, showing a GOOD signs to the whole stadium. All of us followed the same thing by showing a good sign to them. Hae oppa was still singing "When I see your face" few times when he left the stage /he was acting romantic that night lol/ and Yesung was really smiley and kept on waving

Its end. The 3 hours show finally ends. And I want more.

THE NIGHT:

We spent our night at the nearby room around the stadium. It was not that late and we definitely can reach at college on that time but it seems that four of us were like still dreaming and having a major hangover of SS3. So we decided to stay back for awhile. I can't say that I was really sleep that night. Reading those tweet saying that SJ went back to Incheon on 12.05 AM flight was so heartbroken. But at least they're went back with a happy and bright smile :) Had a short nap and woke up at 2 AM, I went for a chit-chat with another ELFs till 4 AM. Its a damn hangover. I woke up at 6 AM and having a walk around the stadium alone. It was awesome. To think that the moment this place was fully crowded with ELFs and now there was only me. And SJ's sweet memory. Definitely will pay a visit to this place again (:

Super Junior. They're close, nearby the stage but seems so far /cause I can't touch them/. They're now far in South Korea but they're close to my heart as always.

All pictures are under copyrighted. Take with full credit. Thank you :)

Will post other picture later keke.

p/s: 4 days passed by and I was still can't believe that I met SJ. Hangover.

45. Fugitive Plan SJ

2011-03-17T16:45:00.008+08:00

I'm writing this entry while searching for subject information in libraryㅋ

Well, boring and ended up to write this to be honest. I just read my cbox.chat and found out there is an admin from songsongcouple.tumblr.com, a fan-dom tumblr passing by this blog /I guess she is/ It was a surprise visit or maybe an honor drop from the sky? Hehe, well, one of my childish craps about SongSong Couple was been posted to the site! Lol /flail on the floor/ this is so cute HAHA. Yeah, I love SongSong Couple and YongSeo Couple. /Is this a couple blog?/ Lol. My honor to be posted here XDDD To stand between the beautiful Song Jihyo unnie and the handsome Song Joongki oppa :3 lol. Cut the craps.

I'm thinking of welcoming Super Junior oppa at KLIA tomorrow afternoon, somewhere around 4.30 pm. My Friday schedule is quite loose so I guess this is the only reason for me to pay my visit to KLIA. Why should I be there everyday anyway. So its a backpacker vacation hmmmpp. /I'm still looking forward with this ambition/ HAHA. By the way this is a secret plan. Ssshhh! XDDD I'm not very sure about the KLIA map so I might end up running into anybody who wears Blue shirt tomorrow. AJA lol. Tonight I'll meet another 2 ELFs classmates that will attend SS3 too. Perhaps we need some conclusion on what to do after the show. Lingering around the stadium for hours or what? This is total epic, an adventureㅋ

HAHA too much

44. Something Banmal?

2011-03-13T11:31:00.003+08:00

Basically I'm not in the mood of writing. Due some weird reason, I went through bad experience of vomiting after eating something something too much. Wow, my pass days were full with health problem HAHA. Nevertheless, I'm starting my countdown for Super Show 3 Malaysia now :) Yaaaaay. Definitely one of the biggest event of the year. Tshirt is okay, blue light-stick will be collected on the day of concert. Map is ready. What else? I don't think I can remember all the lyrics though. Fan-chant? Will try my best. Keke. So I wrote something about YongSeo on the last entry. And to add the failure of the week, the producer of the show announced that the couple will leaving We Got Married, maybe next month. What can I say? Sighs. May your love will always remain the same Jung Yonghwa and Seo Juhyun. I hope you'll end up to be the real couple ♥ Goguma Fighting!

Kyuhyun tweet something precious yesterday HAHA.

@GaemGyu: 정신을 차리고보니 난스브스 드라마를 4개나 보고있었다..... 아빠테나싸인스목상...... 다보면 당분간 드라마는 보시 앦는다고 한신한다

Translation:

@GaemGyu: I came to the realization that I've been watching 4 SBS drama in a row..... Appatenasainsmokjang*..... When I'm done watching I'm sure I'm not going to watch any drama for some time.

*Appatenasainsmokjang is a word he invented by putting in a sequence a word from the title of each drama he's been watching.

1. It's Okay Daddy's Daughter (Donghae's)

2. Athena (Siwon's)

3. Signs (Popular medical drama)

4. Paradise Ranch (CHANGMIN'S!!!)

Lmao. He's cute isn't it? ChangKyu alert! Apparently it seems that Kyuhyun is too free. He should watch Secret Garden too as I myself watching the drama again. But hey, I guess he already watch it :P Pfft.

Kyunbin <3

p/s: I got some tendency of skipping class pass few week. Aigoo. Because I hate the subject. Should slap myself later. This is not good for health. Education's health.

Source:

[[[[[http://www.allkpop.com/2011/03/are-yonghwa-seohyun-leaving-we-got-married]]]]]

[[[[[http://princekyu.net/2011/03/12/110312-kyuhyuns-tweet/]]]]]

43. Because I Feel Love Love Love

2011-03-05T20:37:00.004+08:00

Np: Kissing You - SNSD

Why I feel blissful. Kekeke. My love for YongSeo Goguma Couple is going to explode today. Can't bear to watch We Got Married (WGM) without commentating something about them. Well among the three couple, I watch Jung Yonghwa and Seo Juhyun couple in the most consistent way. Its hard to ignore about this sweet couple. It made you feel two is indeed better than one. Awww. I feel LOVE LOVE LOVE ♥ I rarely skip anything about them. You can say that I always looking for signs in each episode that show me they are advancing, in some way, in their relationship together. Goguma/Sweet Potato Couple is totally different from the rest of other couple; Adam and Khuntoria Couple. Because both Yong and Hyun are still young, this relationship thing is quite new and they have some tendency to hide their feeling from audience. In this case of YongSeo, we have to look at small details. The little gestures, the looks and stares /oh how I love Yong's stares to Hyun/ something they say to each other, it doesn't always jump on you. You've got to dig for it slowly. And I think this is part of their appeal :) We've waited like 27th weeks just to see them holding hands and it just worth the time. I love Yong for his courage to lead Hyun in marriage life, you know this is new for Hyun, she's a naive girl. I love Hyun for balancing Yong's dull life with CNBlue's boys :)

It kind of obvious if it not for real, then for what else did Yong spent his days to made a book of memory for Hyun? Why he always submits to Hyun's wishes whether he likes it or not for instance embarrassing himself by dancing Tell Me Your Wish in front of dongsaeng Lee Jungshin? Unless he likes her very much to this point. Plus the brother in law, Jonghyun, Jungshin and Minhyuk are damn supportive lol. If they aren't real, they won't making extra effort in making her feel comfortable around them. So do SNSD's sister when it comes to Yonghwa. It is really sweet to know that Love Light is written upon Yong remembrance his wife Hyun <3 can I say aww again, please? AWWWW THIS IS DAMN SWEET! XDD

"When I look at you, my face blushes.

When I look at you, my heart goes thump thump.

Like a little kid, I talk with shyness.

You are the President of my heart,

You are my heart, embroidered with the stars,

I'm Genie for you girl. You make me stop my breath,

What ever you want, because I love you,

There's no reason for my love, you know.

You're my darling

You're more beautiful than the star above the nightsky

The shining thing deep inside my heart

It's my own love light."

This is so mushy Yonghwa seobang. Kkkk. I made this hilarious show sounds so fuckgly huh? Too serious LMAO. Oh yeah, I went for alone window shopping activity at mall yesterday. And I found this star pillow and ended up buying this for Kyuhyun. Seriously, I want to throw something to him at Super Show 3 soon. Kekeke. Throw myself? /good idea/ HAHA. Maybe I should made this Cho Byeol more special, some added embroider, shall we start our sewing classes? Oh god. Hey it made me smiling ear to ear as if I'd buy this thing for my lovely future boyfriend. HAHA. Jkjkjk.

Have a guess XDDD

Anyway my sketch book ended up to be like a haunted mansion. I found some good picture for you to see but seems can't find the best for Kyuhyun. Btw, I read somewhere about some easy concert guideline for the first-timer fan like me /index finger pointing at herself/ Enjoy reading :)

1) Ticket should be with you.

2) Make sure the accurate direction to Putra Stadium in Bukit Jalil.

3) If you go there via public transport, double check the schedule so that you won't get confused.

4) Bring raincoat or umbrella if you decided to come early to the stadium.

5) You can bring small flashlight for concert props.

6) Don't bring too many extra money or else you'll ended up spending them all.

7) Get some food and drink before concert.

8) Scout for the closest restroom from your seats.

And the rest will be inside this link. HAHA

http://k-popped.com/2011/03/super-show-3-ss3-malaysia-projects-list/

p/s: This post is damn long ._.

42. In Memoriam of Sg Wang Mall

2011-02-25T01:49:00.004+08:00

This entry was practically to be written on February 19th but due to my busy life as a student /like serious?/ I just started to type it today. Anyway student life is veryveryveryvery annoying. I don't know why but I believe my life has turn upside down with plenty of assignment. Mid-term is around the corner and there are number of test to be gone through. But at least I still managed to hitch myself with Twitter update <3 Yeah I still have my running nose. But it prices nothing compare to my perseverance toward the Super Show pre-sale and I'm kinda proud with it. I GOT MY SUPER SHOW 3 TICKET LIKE FINALLY. Should I scream? Oh yesh, I am. HAHA!

This is not yet a fan account. It just a journal written by a sick girl on her way to Sungei Wang Mall. Read it if you want or vice versa :)

I woke up pretty early on that day, Saturday March 19th. About 6.30 am and half and an hour later, I've done bathing, preparing myself with a bag with a map. All my medicine was put in small bag, I'm afraid that I can't standing too long and probably will faint. Fever was like hitting to the highest temperature but I need to persevere for the tickets. Yeah, I went there alone as my classmate/kpopmate, Faridah can't afford to skip class on that day. Basically, these was my first visit to Sg Wang Mall. Never been there before, why should I? When you have some better place than this mall? It's pretty dull. Haaaaha. Along the way to KL Sentral, I kept on wondering if there is any ELFs accompany me as I saw a group of blueish girls on the board of KTM. Yeah, probably they were hitting the same thought, when they smiled at me too :) /I was wearing a blue shirt with black cardigan/ Off with monorel and walked to the mall in few minutes.

As soon as reaching the mall around 10.00 am, and followed the maps /I was so dumbfounded I know/ I saw a long queue nearby the stairs. Ohyesh lots of ELFs were there. Its kind of sweet to see ELFs talked to each other, making new friends and stuff like that despite the fact that they are new to each other :) Awww, I feel like making a new family HAHA. The fact that I had expecting myself to get the ticket on 12.30 pm was just unreliable. The queue was damn effin long, I can't imagine it myself. The moment you thought something about this corner will be the end and saw another long alley full with shops was damn disappointing. "WHERE IS THE END OF THIS QUEUE?" I believe that were the most utterly spoken words of the day. And I ended up with backache due to lack of sit /sigh/ Its hurt.

Around 2.30 pm, we were like finally reaching to the western wing of Sg. Wang Mall. I was short of water. And felt something like want to kick every people ass. We were given with flyers of Super Bus project assistant. High high, lol. Give me free merchandise and I'll be okay HAHA! But the RITS officer told us that the cheapest ticket has sold out while there were left like 400 seats for Terrace Block. Omigee~ my desire seat already sold out, but my second choice will be at terrace too. Never mind, I won't moaning because of this seat thing, I'll just enjoy the show. Oh yes I swap my ticket with friend and I think my seat is pretty okayh :) Holding the ticket totally worth every minute spent on the queue. And I know I'll enjoy it^^

Have you listen to Super Junior M new single? Perfection? Oh yesh! Its perfect. I hope they'll perform on SS3 Malaysia's stage soon. Btw, I'm making Heechul's Jjinbbang fan, want to make it too? :3 Here it is HAHA. Okay this entry is long enough, shall write no more. Have a bless day :)

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oh tai wan mei~♥

p/s: It's time to rejuvenate myself, recharge my energy, and renew my "hwaiting!". There's only one place for it, home sweet home. I'm coming back hometown this Saturday :) Btw, I scored the highest in English. And I like it.

41. Bitter For Better

2011-02-18T18:57:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting on my bed with the ceiling fan on to the last speed and I'm kinda shivering. Or not. Sigh. I'm officially caught with fever. Yes, again. And the bad thing about this fever is that, it was attacking me a day before my important day. The pre-sale of Super Show 3 tickets. I don't even know how can I manage to be there at Sungei Wang Mall if I keep on sneezing with a box of tissue on my left side. Apparently I had skipped one class and I bet my assignment will be like --- add another one, piss off. Head is like going to explode in 30 seconds, and this half nostril pathway is stuck. Breath in, breath out. Bloke nose. IDK why I'm here though rather than having a healthy rest for my body. Of course my brain is dead and not working today but my fingers are like on a coffee rush. They're practically flying on the keyboard.

Anyway, I ate my two tablets of Paracetamol this morning and seriously there's no changes at all. I guess the body is quite strong against such thing like medicine. Hihihi. How was the new blog header? Am I promoting same gender love? Nope, of course its me who is going to marry both of them, Cho Kyuhyun and Shim Changmin lol. For those who pass by this blog, I just want to say --don't get me wrong. I love the brotherhood-friendship of ChangKyu :) So to make it nice, I just wanna wish both birthday boys a happy 23rd anniversary /hugs/

Happy Birthday my ultimate biases. You're so sweet together ♥

Ok I have to cut this short now. Shall write again later, maybe tomorrow. Wish me luck for the ticket war okay?

p/s: this soya bean tastes suck.

this is so cute

40. One Week On February

2011-02-13T18:32:00.003+08:00

Current Playing Song: Lagu Raya

A week at campus after holiday made me kinda exhausted. Here's the brief summary of this week. Not that enjoyable though.

Monday was just so-so, finished English lesson and then had to listen to Mr. KJ's lecture. Done banking class with Maybank and I went to Taekwando class. This coming Sunday is vital, oooh gosh I will sit for Taekwando test, and I'm not ready. I might end up pretending to kick the ayer ayer and kick the examiner's butt. It should be between the yellow or green belt. Green puhleeease~! >/o\< Tuesday was ok. Wednesday was ok. I think Madam Hafsa kinda like me lol. She always checks my work wehehehe /is that the sign of likeliness?/

Thursday was nice, only one class and wallah~ Friday was miserable. I don't understand with my own schedule. So I decided to skip Statistics class. Bwahahahaha. Saturday /hello, I have class on weekend I know/ was quite nice though Ustaz allowed us to end the class earlier than usual due to his unfavorable health condition, I managed to download 2 episode of KDrama Gumiho XDDD This Saturday is the pre-sale of Super Junior Super Show 3 tickets at Sungei Wang Mall. But behind all this thing, there are a lot of confusing chaos related with the seat plan, bulk tickets, waeyo? Too much depression. Please get enough and go away. Toinkz. HAHA. I hope I can get the ticket and desire seat, AJA! Am I wasting my money on this ticket? Whateverrrr. One of the reason to smile and I won't let it go :)

I revised my Korean language book yesterday as I forgot everything about the tenses and stuff. Apparently I ended up Google-ing a site of one native Korean, SendMeToKorea.com /click the word and it will bring you straight to the site/ I wonder why Korean street looks very attractive. Even all the random picture looks like somewhere inside the infamous drama BOF, Stairway To Heaven, My Girl etc etc. /sigh fan-girling too much/

Me and my roommates planning to go to ICT Shah Alam this weekend. Someone craving too much of taking pictures under the glimmer's light :P The plan is pretty insecure as we have no transportation, etc but personally I think that's more adventurous yaay HAHA. There's a plan of entering a cooking competition. As I don't really good in cooking, I might be there to give a cheerful support to my friend hehe. Well, seriously two of my roommates kinda arguing with one another. And I don't even bother to know about it. They look good in front of each other, but seriously a hidden back-stabber. Am I one of them?? Piss off.

Another week coming, ppalle ppalle. Finish one step at the time, can't wait to go back hometown lol XDDD

p/s: I just discovered my tendency to write a long essay in this blog. I should be a writer. Hmmpppfff.

39. Song Song Couple

2011-02-06T22:00:00.002+08:00

Mood: Mix feeling

Current Playing Song: Love Light - CN BLUE

Hello :) How are you? Hahah. Never-mind I just trying hard to hide my feeling. It kinda miserable at the moment. Oh what's that? /eavesdropping/ someone watching Full House. Pfft. Anyway I just came back to campus after a long /long?/ Chinese New Year holiday. Mum bought me a bolster today, I just wrapped it with new Pooh blanket. When I miss her, I'll hug that bolster. /current position: hugging a bolster/ Hehe, childish.

Well, my holiday was kind of nice. I was doing all well with Jeehan. We watch Running Man kekeke. So here I am writing an entry about my biases in the show. To shorten the explanation about Running Man, I leave you with the wikipedia link XDDD HAHA. Click at the word *RUNNING MAN* It is the current phenomenon show at South Korea now. Well I was randomly watch it due to some Song Joongki's seek+found craziness. I must be a new biases of Joongki. I personally think he looks the best with Song Jihyo. I am a SONGSONG COUPLE supporter! LOL I ship you two guys to death HEHE! I don't mind if Joongki is 3 years younger than Jihyo. I don't mind if other Korean actress looks more match with Joongki because Joongki is only for Jihyo. Crazy me! LMFAO! I don't care about Leesang Gary though Monday Couple is very comical together because I only care about SongSong.

Somehow I think Gary really likes Jihyo. But she just jokes around sarcastically trying to run away from the attention. And I think Joongki has a small crush on Jihyo taking the point that he filmed Frozen Flower with her before this. Maybe he feels the need to protect Jihyo. Aigooo... nae Joongki HAHA. Jihyo unnie with this I command you to take care of Joongki's heart! OK? LOL.

This show will definitely the reason to smile along February. Every SongSong Couple's moment is priceless :)

End of the day, I haven't finish 2 out of 4 assignments. Must work hard tonight. HAHA .

38. You'll Walk Alone FT9

2011-02-03T02:17:00.002+08:00

He might becomes my favorite football star forever. He may be the reason why I got so contented with football and English Premier League to be exact. He may be the reason why I'm seriously counted money to buy the original number 9 Liverpool jersey at Al-Ikhsan sport center nearby house. He may be the reason I woke up on early weekend morning just to watch any football match. He may one of the reason why I love RED so much *aside from TVXQ. He may be the reason why I confronted my Chelsea and Manchester United classmates without any fear. He may be the reason why I carelessly spent my money on buying the football magazines every week and month. He may be the reason I amazingly remembered the previous and current player of Liverpool FC and all player in EPL to be frank. He's the reason why I bought a black hair scarf *sounds silly though. He's the reason why I think stadium is kinda romantic place for a date. Duhh.

But in this case, loyalty is an ultimate thing for me. Loyalty is totally a main thing for me. Betrayal is a big no no. But people's changing isn't it? Hate it seriously but I never know how much have I changed personally. A lot maybe. I don't know how to describe it but I'm Torres-Gerrard shipper.Talking craps how many of you here are well known about Steven Gerrard and Fernando Torres? Deep sigh/ But I know deep inside in my heart, he'll always be my numero uno footballer all the times. Quite sad duhh? Have I told you before I'm quite a football addict?

My Melwood dream is already like burning and turns into ashes. My high-school was like full of naive dream that possibility won't come out to be real, first: visiting South Korea, second watching football match at Anfield Stadium and Liverpool team practicing at Melwood.

Dear Fernando Torres,

You just hurt a nation that is called as Liverpool FC. Its hurt a lot. Maybe I'm thinking too much but signing a contract at Chelsea is just too evil I guess. Once a hero, and now every people who counts one you before this called you as the traitor. Kinda suck and disappointed on you. Heartache. You should think twice about this matter. A legend to be at Anfield or just a mere championship at Chelsea? You're an idol to thousand of young footballer. I won't buy your blue jersey. You won't look good at it. Not that I'm cursing you directly, but that's the fact. I'm cursing you. BleEH.

So long and goodbye FT9, you're now walking alone indeed. Good luck at Chelsea. Sobs. T^T

From: Forever You Never Walk Alone Supporter.

p/s: I guess this is what you get when women are involve into football. Emotion overloaded :P

Happy Birthday my hubby Cho Kyuhyun and Happy Chinese New Year